only God judge Me

dear sayang

2010-07-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

yank coba kau jujur padaku
yank foto siapa di dompetmu
yank kok kamu diam membisu
sayang jawab atau aku pergi sayang

aku tak mau bicara
sebelum kau cerita semua
apa maumu, siapa dirinya
tak betah bila ada yang lain

jangan hubungi ku lagi
ini bisa jadi yang terakhir
aku ngerti kamu, kau tak ngerti aku
sekarang atau tak selamanya

yank jangan kira ku tak tahu
yank tak mudah kau bodohiku
yank tolong dengarkanlah aku
tapi sayang masih pantaskah kau ku panggil sayang

taken from Wali Band - Yank

baby...

2010-07-03T03:32:00.003+08:00

selama ini
ku mengenali
dirimu
tapi ku tak pasti
kita berdua
yang hanya memahami
tak mungkin kita akan akan bersama

are we an item?
boy quit playing
diriku bukannya bermain

so tell me baby
mungkin kau masih ada
waktu kalau aku bersama

so i was like
baby baby ohh
baby baby noo

Taken from: Caprice (Feat Ruby Jude) - Baby Cover Remix

Jangan kau tuduh aku
Tuduh aku selingkuh
Sadarkah ucapanmu adalah doamu

Jangan kau tuduh aku
Tuduh aku selingkuh
Sadarkah tuduhanmu
Akhirnya yang ajariku ‘tuk selingkuh

Jangan kau tuduh aku
Tuduh aku selingkuh
Sadarkah ucapanmu adalah doamu
Dan jangan kau tuduh aku
Tuduh aku selingkuh
Akhirnya yang ajariku ‘tuk selingkuh

Reff:
Makanya kamu jangan sembarangan berkata
Karena setiap kata adalah doa
Inilah akibatnya kau sering menuduhku
Inilah akibatnya kamu memojokkanku
Akhirnya aku selingkuh

Makanya kamu jangan sembarangan berkata
Karena setiap kata adalah doa
Inilah akibatnya kau sering menuduhku
Inilah akibatnya kamu memojokkanku
Inilah akibatnya kau sering menuduhku
Inilah akibatnya kamu memojokkanku
Akhirnya aku selingkuh

Taken from: Wali Band - Jangan Tuduh Aku

peace out

2010-06-20T14:32:00.002+08:00

dibawah batu nisan kini kau tlah sandarkan
kasih sayang kamu …… begitu dalam
sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi
karna ku sangat cinta

inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan
selamat jalan kasih

taken frm: ST12 - Saat Terakhir

dear love,

i've been trying to be perfect for you
to be the main person for you to be lying on
whenever and wherever you are

but things didnt go as i imagined
you changed yourself so drastically
and forgot all the promises u gave me

thanks for the promises
thanks for the hope
thanks for letting me fall
without having any intention of loving me
with all your heart

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend.

comel

2010-06-17T10:16:00.000+08:00

waweeee... comel cikgu tutor.. suke die.. name die farah.. i really hope shes really good like she says she is.. anyway.. this is my second class for today.. and im getting sleepier and sleepier.. god please help me..

bes bes

2010-05-19T20:34:00.003+08:00

arini... aku drpd pagi sampailah petang duk bejalan jer.. memula teman mama pegi beli ubat2an tuk along.. poor her.. she always had bad period pain. but wat to do.. she didnt noe bout epo till i recommended to her last night. its just supplimentary pills.. doesnt kill. haha!

abuden.. teman mama gi mydin. damn pack lah that place. soooo memeningkan. seriously. mabok aku dibuatnye. i hate that place. not coz of the name or anything but i just don like a very busy place! yuck! plus.. everyone was like hysterical bile nampak ada parking space. weirdd...........

we headed johan's nest. its not dat far anyway. but i just drove all the way there for mama to ukur meja. boleh x? xjauh plak nak g..... x sampai 10 min kowt!! afta dat, i had a text frm mar..

OMG.. dalam hati jelah.. xsaba gile2 ok nak jmpe die.. shes always been one of the person i'd really like to hang out if i go back malacca.. but den, shes here! in subang! weee!~~~

lepas lepak dgn die.. we finally said goodbye.. ade kot 3 hours plus.. xsedar pon masa berlalu. it happened so fast...! xsempat nak bemanja2... :"> thanks for comin.. mar.. farah.. love y'all...

sialan.

2010-05-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

kemungkinan tak ramai yang tengok program "semanis kurma" tapi.. aku suke program tu. banyak bende yang kita tak tau jadi tahu. haha.

minggu lepas aku terlepas tengok.. and its about "kekasihku suami orang" or something like dat.. aku tak heranlah sangat bout the title.. but apa yang tangkap perhatian aku was that particular forum in da metro sunday newspaper.

ade ke patut sorang pompuan marah.. just coz of ustazah said its wrong to take someone's else husband. ok.. lets put it that way. bukannye ustazah tu emotional sangat bout this stuff. but u have to be rasional.

sanggupkah kamu berkongsi kasih dgn org lain?

seriously.. put aside all those fucking-gedik-style-way-of-saying "da jodo..." try to put urself in that person's wife's shoes.

rasenye mesti sakitkan hati?

or put urself as one of the children instead. i can guaranteed!! that u'll say.. "papa jahat.. " or "i'll hate guys for life" or like.. "papa bodoh..kejam..kesian mama"

as for me.. dah tetulis dlm al-quran. its already stated (kalau aku tak silap.. aku dgr ceramah laa...) that if a guy know himself (seseorang mesti noe himself better than anyone else rite?) cant be responsible to all or even be fair enuf to his first wife.. he must setia to one.. he must learn to love only one.. he must only married to one.. ape lagi yang tak pahamnye??

yang paling senang to put this long story short... "men are borned with high strength.. women are borned with high level of emotional.."

I'm Sorry.

2010-05-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry,

for letting myself out
for keeping myself far
for making you guys sad.

I'm so sorry,

our friendship is our strength
our friendship always there
our friendship is the best

I'm so sorry,

forgetting the dates
forgetting the wishes
forgetting what's the most important matter

I'm so sorry,

Diyana and Ching Sin...
1437

damn damn damn

2010-05-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

for few weeks.. i didnt online just becoz of this stupid broadband! (hope it cant listen.. jgn merajuk plak!).. i donno what happened.. but it really bugged me when im online-ning and suddenly (puupp!) no device found.. damn thats sooo frustrated...

den tetibe today.. i mula online in da kitchen while cuci kain.. line still dropping. urgh!! (fuck it! fuck it!).... tgh2 sedap dendangkan lagu.. battery plak low.. aisehhh...

dah cocok smua plug in da room.. something happened...
miracle! (yey!) my internet is there... again! and i cant stop online now... Dem.. dem.. dem...

cinta ini membunuhku

2010-04-29T06:45:00.003+08:00

Kau membuat, ku berantakan.
Kau membuat, ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat, ku tak berdaya.
Kau menolak ku, acuhkan diri ku.

Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,
ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
cinta ini, membunuh ku.

lantak!

2010-04-29T03:18:00.003+08:00

kawan kan?

aku kalau bekwn.. mmg aku akan jage.. lagi2 kalau org tu dah lame dan dah banyak berkorban same2 ngan aku. kalau org sakitkan hati kwn aku, not only u deal with him/her but also me. kalau ko betul kenal aku, aku tayah nak explain lagi kan.

aku dah ckp.
ikot janji. ko tanak dgr. ko ikot pale ko. bile dah kene kat btg hidung sndiri, ko yg sakit.
aku dah ckp.
kalau xde trust, smua tak jadi. ko tak trust die, tapi ko ingat die trust ko?
aku dah ckp.
once die dah rase kehilangan ko, die takkan ulang. tp ape ko buat? ko tuduh die mcm2 bende yg die tak buat.

sayang... konon..

bile sayang, org tu buat apa pon mmg kita takkan kisah sgt. tp jgn naik tocang. fikir sblm ko buat. fikir sblm ko ckp. ko main ckp lepas, tak penah fikir hati dan perasaan org di sana. ko ingat die hape?

kalau ko syg.
ko takkan tuduh die bende2 yg die tak penah buat.
kalau ko syg.
ko takkan kontek dan flirt dgn org lain stiap kali gaduh.
kalau ko syg.
ko tunjuk. bukannye ko ckp jek.

benci

ye. aku xkisah kalau ko benci aku. ko tuduh aku mcm2. nak pisahkan ko konon. aku nyesal sbb aku yg kenenkan ko dgn die. aku yg slalu pujuk die kembali kat sisi ko kalau gaduh. aku yg susah payah nak buat korang kekal.

bile ko dah senang.
ko maki aku senang lenang.
bile ko dah senang.
ko lupe ape yg aku dah korbankan tuk korang.
bile ko dah senang.
ko tuduh aku mcm2 sedangkan bende tu dah terbukti.

terasa?

aku tak heran lah kalau nama aku naik lagi. sbb aku kenal ko sgt2. kalau x, xdelah ko jual nama mmbr aku pastu ko jilat balik kan? ye ko syg die.. tapi aku tak suke cara ko. die bukan doormat. die bukan tunggul.

aku mmg akan sentiasa ada tuk die whether u like it or not. sbb bile ko sakitkan hati die, ko lupe yg die takde sesapa. ko nak die gile? no man. ko buat ape ko nak. asalkan jgn sakitkan die. aku keja ko sampai lubang cacing.

ko nak maki aku.. ko nak marah aku.. silakan. asal ko ingat tugas ko. once ko dah jadi pasangan die, jage die elok2. jgn ulang mistakes ko dlu2. jgn ko samakan die dgn ex2 ko. die maybe nampak koto di luar tapi die chantek dr dlm. ko xpenah nampak sbb ko tak penah cube.

ngek

2010-04-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

Haha. didnt expect those people read my post. terasa pulak tu. damn. seriously, if there's anyone out there.. terperasan or ter-"hurt" when u read my post.. please lah. jangan nak perasan. u can be mad at me if i really really stated ur particulars there.. e.g. ur name? or at least ur looks? but then, im not like u rite?

anyway..
im here to talk bout the new hawtie! Haha. smua but-ties cakap hes not dat cute lah. his suara not that nice lah. but who cares? his voice cute. his words are true. and most of all... he, justin bieber.. is my new favourite artist weh!

and the best part of all..!~

hepi besday sayang..!

i just cant believe that u are really exist in my life as u're the best thing that ever happened in my life. u're 23 now.. haha. u're getting older man.. but still as cool as the first time i laid my eyes on u...

hope u'll have pleasant year.. panjang umo.. murah rezeki and i hope we'll be as happy as we are now.. and paint our way with colorful and beautiful rainbows.. together~!

gile!

2010-03-19T18:16:00.001+08:00

"bukan semua orang boleh terima kita seperti mana kita terima diri mereka"

mmg betul lah ape yg di perkatakan selama ni kan. tak smua orang boleh terima kita macam mana. kita jek boleh terima kelemahan dan kelebihan orang. semua benda kita buat untuk menjaga hati pihak lain. tapi pernah ke mereka menjaga hati kita?

i don think so.

why ey? yeah. people change. tapi on what reason? i've changed. thats true. but one thing for sure. i never doubt in what i do. i never doubt in any of my decision. and its fixed! especially in my work.

dont like it?

fuck off. who ask for your opinion? why u have to mixed up friendship and ur personal problems? who are u to be pissed off let ur angerness to me. who am i? am i ur doll? am i ur puppet; follow ur rule.. follow ur style.. and cant speak any word other than "yes".

apa? terasa?

jangan terasa if u're not the one who creating problems with me. im a moderate person. i think i can be patience. but i have my own limits. dont blame me if my words really shoot through ur heart.

sorry!

lama tak update. internet gila. hidup tak tentu arah. banyak hal, banyak problem. try to fix it. try to run from everything but failed to do so. stupid to do so. dont give me any comment on that. i learnt from my own mistakes.

lost someone

2010-02-19T02:55:00.003+08:00

yeah. like da title stated... i lost someone.. that i really trust.. matter of fact, im disappointed in him.. for all this while, i kept pushing all the rumors about him and telling people about the good t aspects of having him as a friend but at last.. what i heard from the people around me were true...

seribu kebaikan yang kita lakukan, orang tidak akan ingat. tapi, sekali kita buat kesilapan... orang akan sentiasa mencari kesalahan seterusnya untuk membenci kita.

i neither can decide nor give the right comment. im stuck in the middle. then it is true that im weak. i cant see the truth sampailah terkena kat batang hidung sendiri... kadang-kadang memang kita boleh trust seseorang.

untuk membetulkan keadaan, i dont think its wrong to be true. but i know its wrong to break the trust. im sorry.

p/s: take note babe. im sorry i doubted you before. now i can see the real him through you. thank you.

friendship VS relationship

2010-01-30T03:59:00.002+08:00

i've been thinking on typing on this topic for quite some time. but i didnt get the enough details to i dunno... put here? haha. well.. i only type when i got the mood or its in the season u see.. so just wait and insyaAllah when i get the mood.. i'll type everything on. detailed!

a'rite ladies n gentleman...
todays topic is about friendship VS relationship. from this word.. this relationship and friendship word.. what can u conduct from them? will u be able to describe it very detail or just slightly like dat... *sambil petik jari* XD

in my point of view (eventhough u didnt ask for it. but since its my blog.. sukati aku lah nak taip yep..),

relationship is between two people in love. yes, they're friends too. but friendship, it has its own boundaries u see. relationship is when u feel secured.. loved.. cared.. everything.. additional with the butterfly in the stomach shit.

as for friendship.. its someone u spend ur time with.. hang out.. share some enjoyful moment.. carefree mode.. but still it has boundaries. yes.. u would ask urself again and again.. what is naz saying man.. what type of boundaries a friendship has??

well... u see.. as friends.. u have to understand ur friends' situation. what do i mean by that? ok.. when i was a single lady.. i have alot.. (really alot!!) of guy friends which have gfs... and every time i went out with them.. i'll make sure their gfs are around me.. or acknowledge it. why? i respect their relationship. and i wanna clear things up!

as an ex, for instant.. eg.. u broke up with this boy.. its alrite to befriend back. its fine actually. coz friendship never dies u see. that is true. its proven okay? i have a friend that betahan from kindergarten till present. thats like 20-6 = 14 years?

but u see. u have to make sure that u wont be stir up other people relationship as well.. the boy u broke up with.. has a new gurl.. u can befriend but not too much.. u have to respect it.. try to place urself in that gurl's shoes. wat would u feel.. wat would u think when u and him befriend closely back? sedikit sebanyak it would hurt that gurl's feelings don u think?

its NOT certainly a win-win situation.. but it would be a win-lose situation.. u win by stirring up their relationship.. thats for sure.. even if u dont have the intention to do it..

the best thing is u take things slowly. its better if u get to know the gurl better first or even stand up to ur place and clear things up. yeah, that would help even if the gurl said its alrite. its proven that u respect their relationship..

relationship. dont let me start with that, please! haha. im kinda sleepy so i'll make this short. everyone would ask me the same question over and over!

Q: how should i treat her/him to make sure she/he loves me like I do?

fuck the q. dont ask me man.. u should ask urself. how u wan her/him to treat u. try to put in her/his shoes before u do things.. before u think about something. i learnt my lessons. why cant u eh?

when u're angry.. avoid harshfulness.. again i learnt my lessen through that. gentleness beautifies, harshfullness disfigures. think again.. over and over.. clear things up the way u want it to be. dont be a lion.. attack without using ur brain!

u want him/her to trust u.. do the same thing first. if u're in a situation where she/he angry with u.. yeah.. u can pujuk her/him.. but first.. dont change the way u treating him.. again i learnt my lesson through this thing. wakaka..

its about experiences baby.. *loghat austin powers* so u have to think twice. in any WAY! just like the song from which band ah.. damn i forgot...

anywho... i gtg now. my eyes are closing without my permission rite now... hahaha! so chow lu babes~ read properly the things u asked my opinion about okay?

not one of us without sins

2010-01-14T02:16:00.002+08:00

yeah. u're probably 99.9% right, zaf.. all of us have sins.. including me and u.. its not something we can argue about. its okay for people to say anything behind us but its TOTALLY NOT OKAY if they judge us..

one, tak semua yang jahat is always dat evil. sometimes, they're the best of friends. two, kalau penah buat silap, doesnt mean we will repeat it. three, sukati lah aku nak buat ape.. its advisable if u people out there, do wat i do every now and then... which is.. lepas 2 kali aku tegur tak makan saman... jangan harap aku akan tegur lagi..

god gives us mind to think what is right and wrong... kadang2 its OK to do the wrong things so that we can learn from mistake and continuing our life with new tricks.. kan lebih afdal if it goes that way?

orang kalau dah tak suka,... they will find reason to hate it more.. for example.. my neighbour... ex-roomate.. and urm... anywho involved in this shit... they aint like me.. coz im like this thinking.. and whenever i did any small mistake.. even if i sneeze without closing my mouth.. they'll non-stop whispering and spread bad news bout me.. whats dat all about man?

that is a sin too.. haha

nak tegur salah.. tak tegur pon salah.. rase besalah pon ada. haih.. kesian beta kot..

Memoirs

2010-01-09T20:29:00.001+08:00

It was really dark when i arrived here. Haha. Alrite... i admit it. It was kinda scary. Haha. But its alright. I’ll be staying here for the next 3 years anyway. Its too late to be thinking all those negative sides.

I was really tense okay... to see the boxes around my bed. Urghh.. can u be more neat?? Eventhough they are around 3-4 boxes more.. but i just finished packed the biggest one. Haha. I found back my comics.. my extra gloceries.. and the most suprisingly.. my diary! Haha..

If i count rite... i bought that diary when i was form 3... haha.. kacau-ing Didi on the fon while packing her present in a very big lembu box with CS... it was right in front of me. Actually.. i don like diary.. seriously..

One, it contains all my feelings and all my scary...pathetic thoughts about my life. Which kinda equal with what i’m doing with this blog. But who cares? Two, people can use it against me. Yeah. I had an experience with bad-backstabbed-friend who took my diary and made it a joke. Three, if people read it... come on!

IT IS CALLED AS SECRET AS NO ONE CAN READ THEM EXCEPT ME AND ONLY ME!

Back to the story.. when i opened that diary.. the very first thing i saw was a picture of ma mom. She was really cute with her garden hat.. with her big smiles.. and weird-peace-hand-gosture! Haha.. yeah... i miss that moment...

That diary.. somehow brought back all the flashbacks.. the good... the bad.. the sweet and of course.. the disasters of my high-school life..

While reading it.. i can see all those tear drops on the writing.. haha.. so i think i was crying when i wrote them rite? XD sad man... anyway, the writing always change. Depends on my mood and the story inside them...

For example... if the story was happy... and they were really clean and neat.. but if they were sad moments.. the betrayal.. the handwriting was soo ugly.. and alot of tear drops on them..

After i read them.. i felt something different. Something that changed my view... yeah.. my view of life.. haha. We are learning in this life especially when we did all those stupid mistakes rite? And suddenly.. poom... the funny part came...

All the friendship i was tense with.. weirdly still on.. and all those sweet and good friends i’ve had.. GONE! Haha... im not kidding here man.. they’re gone from my life dictionary.. sadly.. people do change. And sometimes dramatically.. till u feel like slapping them frequent times just to wake them up from those nightmares... XD

Mmg betul lah ape yg dikatakan...

DON’T EVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!

OMG

2010-01-09T05:15:00.001+08:00

the time is ticking. it's 5.15 in the morning and i havent sleep. damn. im soo sleepy yet i cant close my eyes coz they're painful. dang... they're red too! gee.. i put the eye drops countless times and still it doesnt work! urghhh...

tomoro is aunt jamaliah's majlis doa selamat. mama said, her 15/16-year-old son survived in an accident. fiuh! i know how painful can it be man.. but yeah.. we're invited. sadly papa cant attend it. he got a flight to fly.. i think its in afternoon.. yerp! afternoon...

then later that evening, i'll be switching back to seri kembangan place for a nice romantic dinner. haha. lovin' it! XD
oh! wait.. i forgot..
there's still alot of stuff there! huaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! confirm i got to clean up everything and.. and.. susun them back to their own places... =.="

lappy oh lappy

2010-01-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

lappy buat hal da other day. the keyboard, the mouse/touch pad... smua didnt work well.. pelik betul.. and then, all the viruses.. i dunno where the HELL they came from.. all of them pop out from every single file of mine..

pastu i gave abg ady a call.. luckily he was free and wanted to help me. and yeah, he just came back from me house. he formatted the lappy.. and well... everything came back as normal... haha im so lucky my lappy still can be saved! unlike my old one.. haihz =.="

my lappy actually should be Vista. but then, i asked that apek to downgraded it to be XP for i am so "expert" in that area.. and now, abg ady changed it back to Vista. coz he said, this lappy was built-in with Vista..

tapelah kan lappy kuh...? everything went smooth anyway.. love u! muah muah!

malas.malas.malas.

2010-01-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

im soo sorry. i didnt update bukan sebab tade cerita baru. there's tons of it. but i am soo lazy.. i dunno why. im just tired u see. all i do now is sleep.. and sleep and sleep again. kalau keluar pon, just watch cinema.. or eat.. or just to find some stuff. particular stuff. haha

i tot of writing down everything i learnt bout haji here. but i will put under another topic. haha. oh yea... im a Hajjah now. hahaha. its funny to think bout it.. but yeah... I AM! please don make fun of me. i still have my fist aites?

bout ma study ehh

now im officially budak degree.. in MIM.. please.. don ask me wat will i study coz i noe nothing about it. took it for the sake to be in Cyberjaya.. but i noe lah wats MIM stands for.. its urr... Media Innovation and Management. other than that, please don ask me..

few times edi i went there just to cover up every particulars i need to noe bout my course. and yeah.. i havent complete all. i have this alpha certificate i wanted to take for months but they havent print it.. i donno whether thats true or not but yeah.. i can wait.. haha!

damn dude~!

2009-11-09T11:02:00.002+08:00

came back from beijing, disaster happened. mas tot its only her router was burst. but then, the power switch was a lightning victim too! haha. lol.. and so, she tried to save it. unfortunately, shes not dat smart. plus, the warranty confirm lah lambat kan even if u got the 1 to 1 thingy...

lame gile takde internet wireless..!! its kinda of driving me and her crazy.. coz usually we just online anywhere we wanted and just one click.. tara~~!! we're surfing~!

now...
if i wanted to play the internet or surf it.. i have to play with the mother comp. the main server! damn.. and the computer somehow became so slow! just like a small lil turtle dude!

i wanted to apply my leave of absence for this trimester and again, im stressed with the speed!! waghhh!! so i've decided. i just switch on the engine and vrooom!! am in the cc now. haha

anyway, the time is up. got to go now. daaa!~

tomorrow~

2009-10-28T13:23:00.002+08:00

tomorrow..

place to visit: beijing, china
period: 5 days, 4 nights

the flight will be tomorrow night. eventhough im going there, im not sure that my mind is following me. haha. bet that it would stay here. with Mr Montel. haha XD but then, i'll be bringing his sweater... ngeee!!! >///<

ok enuf bout that... hahahha!

anyway, i cant wait to be there. everyone told me the same thing, "u're so lucky! that place is awesome!"... the place.. the things.. the walking and hiking.. and i hope the best thing is the pictures me and mas going to take! haha! lol. sure lawa seh!

today mama, me and papa pegi jalan2 naik kete baby murano. haha. our new car.. please refer to my sis's website if u wanna noe what car is that.. haha c|:

boleh pulak gaduh2 dlm kete bout the functions inside that car. papa semangat gile nak bace the manual book.. swt! =.=" come on papa.. its not like we never had a new car b4.. hahaha geli hati tgk papa and mama duk gaduh2 dlm kete..

fes, we went to kemuning. den puchong. den usj 7.. but the thing which captures my attention is the minyak level. damn.. just turun satu batang! haha.. i tot it would makan minyak like my car. but i admit.. i was wrong! XD

enuf said. have to go out for awhile. will update later...!

motoGP

2009-10-26T10:38:00.010+08:00

yesterday's agenda: motoGP 2009
purpose: valentino rucci + spend time with Mr Montel
time: from morning - late evening

fes thing first... had to take pic at his poster! hahaha :P
well.. hes not really a good looking guy but he has the bakat rite?
it was really tiring anyway.. but it was worth coz this was the first time i watched the real live motoGP competition..

tak saba lah sgt nak masuk.. come on.. try to imagine.. every step inside.. we'll take picture of ourselves! crazy isn't it?
its called exciteD! hahaha!

ma Mr Montel!~
we got front seat in the grandstand. its free seating but he managed to show us the best place to watch 3 dangerous corners and yeah.. i did watch accidents live! whooo!!~
i counted and they were like 4 of them? haha! donno lah. scared to talk bout it. its too ganas weh! 18sg!

at the end of the day..
the road was so jammed and keadaan menjadi kelam kalibut.
everything Mr Montel has planned with me didnt work out. im sorry, sayang... mesti ada hikmah di sebaliknya..

thank you for everything. i really had fun yesterday! =D it was the best experience i've had in years~ 1437

stop this!

2009-10-23T13:36:00.005+08:00

y is it so hard to gain something that people claimed as a happiness? y the good things always have all the stupid and disturbing obstacles? heh. people just cant get enough of it, right?

yes, i admitted. there was once i felt i've been left by my own. thats y i did all those things to get u back. but den, lastly i accepted the fact that u're belong with her.

but y? u do noe how hard it is for me to fall in love. u do noe i had enough experiences that made me into this mess. u said that u love me but if u really care about me, let me go as i let u go. let me feel the real feeling of being love by someone i love just like u're having now.

y cant u?

i never been so happy in my life since i met him. and im not planning to be with anyone else but him. maybe she was ur first but hes not my first. i had bad and countless past with men but i never met someone like him. who appreciates me the way i am. who love me being me.

he was the one who motivates me whenever im down. but who noes that? do u? should i tell u everything? even if i tell everything, would u understand? would u leave us alone? no, i dont noe that.

y u being so pathetic?

y cant i feel everything that u felt? i have my own mind. n im not like u. so please, let me go and let me decide my own life. i can think for whats best for me and him.

he maybe a workaholic but that workaholic has changed me the way i am now. and i really glad i met him for correcting me as i've always key-in my mind that all men are the same.

are u happy by making me feel this way? are u done with ur revenge? are u done with ur thinking?

i thought u would understand me better. would happy for me. but no! u dont! u felt as if its wrong for me to feel this way. for what? so that i wont feel loved just like u? stop being selfish...

i thought u would back me up. so that i wont have to feel or face anything u had before when u started dating her. u asked me to be strong. but at the same time, u stabbed me indirectly. whats wrong with u anyway?

i noe its hard. but please. u should understand me better. yes, i noe. u're just doing ur job. u're being protective.. but dont overdo it. its annoying. u're just being the person who did it to u.. dont u realize it?

update report~

2009-10-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

pergh! lame gile tak update this blog. no wonder mas dah bising. haha. sory sory. i was too busy with my life. yelah kan.. name pon dah habis foundation.. hidup rase macam nak enjoy je. tak pikir ape dah. sampaikan results pon cam dah tak endah..

but bile dah dekat ngan timing...hahaha.. dah mule cuak.. tangan mula gigil.. bepeluh2 nak bukak that results page. once open... wah! lulus! yeay! i survived!!~~ haaha!~ takyah duduk kat melaka tu lagi. tak payah stay rumah tu lagi.. tayah nak pandang mke2 yg sama kat dlm kelas lagi.. hahahaa

tapi gembira2 pon takley lame ouh.. i got to go to cyberjaya. uruskan my place there for degree. taking study leave for the whole first sem. uwaaaa!! i wanna be a degree student dude!~ tak saba pulak. haha! gedik...

30th october.. pegi china.. 19th november.. pegi haji.. huaaa!! takut! both of 'em...!! please somebody wake me up!!! im super duper scared!!~

sepi.tension.kecewa

2009-09-27T16:05:00.002+08:00

sepi

there's no one in the house nomore
feel more than empty in this life
whatever i do
it doesnt seems enough for u

tension

exam is coming
not one of the pages uploaded in my mind

my mind blank as ever
as if its not mine anymore

kecewa

nothing can describe this feelings
no one truly understand
except for those who facing it through
with or without me inside

Romance

2009-09-17T07:35:00.000+08:00

Ku Ingin Kamu

Demi semua yang aku jalani bersamamu
Ku ingin kau jadi milikku
Ku ingin kau disampingku

Tanpa dirimu ku
Hanya manusia tanpa cinta
Dan hanya dirimu yang bisa
Membawa surga dalam hatiku

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Sentuhanmu
Bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
Yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
Dan membuatku tak kuasa

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Di setiap arung gerak
Tersimpan di hati kecilku
Bahwa dirimu terindah untukku

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas
Selama Tuhan masih mengizinkan
Ku ingin selalu menjagamu

Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas

wow

2009-09-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

tunggu punye tunggu. tot of dining in piza hut.. but come on... tetibe tak pegi plak. bro said he wanted to go for the meeting coz its a combination of two moto clubs. takpelah. bukan harini rezeki kuh. haha!

dalam kereta..

jojo nak rokok.. OMG! luckily i got small change. thats fine.. while waiting at the petronas's drive through.. sempat amik gamba! sunggoh cam-whore... hahahaha

its been long time aku tak amik gamba camni.. hahaha its fun actually.. to do it once in awhile.. wee!!~~

RIP: Patrick Swayze

2009-09-15T20:31:00.003+08:00

OMG! we lost another star. a star that would be remembered. a star that captured all the attention in "dirty dancing", "ghost" and other blockbuster movies. he, patrick swayze.

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"Patrick Swayze passed away peacefully today with family at his side after facing the challenges of his illness for the last 20 months," his publicist, Annett Wolf.

hes hot. even when he grown old, he was my idol. especially in "dirty dancing 2:havana nights". his body moved just right with the music. <3>

actually

2009-09-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

theres many things to be written. but im too lazy.. too ill (cewah!) and too ____ to type it here. and so, i just make it sooo simple.. and let the pictures (even from other people's blog) to tell it. hahaha!! bapak lazy sial~!

this picture taken in ikea kot... ke curve ekk.. haha along with my bro.. i was asked to hold that batang thingy but xsempat ok! haha XD so i just posed however i wan!!

haa! just now she wasnt there. and now shes here! haha.. my rock kakak.. (lame kelamaan u'll look like my old self.. hahaa) go mas! go mas!

papa was working and so, we together with johan's bud (cant remember her name)... but who wanna take the picture if we'all sitting together aites? hahaha XD thanks sis!

org kalau dah takde keje.. this is wat happened.. haha XD mas got a movie for us to watch but as u can see, its a horror + thriller.. so we shouted like no one's business during this show. i don think i can feel my legs either.. haha XD

okay.. thats it for now. bed, now! haha.. tomoro i'll be having quiz. and i have to drive from subang to malacca fes... make story short.. bye bye now.. bye bye.. bye bye now~

ahaks..

2009-08-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

oh my! i slept in my parents room again. ahaks! im addicted to it actually. plus, once i sleep in dat room.. i cant wake up. haha. its just like a drug, usee. a very very strong one too. haha

oh yea.. i woke up ad i felt so bored! tried to find that old tape. mama has recorded a movie, "son of the mask"... but i couldnt find it and so.. i asked mas to download it and she found it! haha..

it seems that i cant get enuf of this movie. its so funny and hillarious weyh... haha :P even the baby and the dog talks! hahaha

its an old movie but i don mind.. haha i love it. and once i love it...! :P oh did i forget to tell u. i love the guy who play "Loki" hehehe...

mmmmm....

2009-08-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

haha. its shocking. really shocking.. i can wake up and stay up till morning. straight drive home back. reached home i think around 8.30am haha lol. mama still "racing" with papa on the bed so i don wanna disturb them at all.

i just landed on my sweet soft bed and ouh! wat a blast weyh! <3 it! i missed it! and its already been 2 nights i slept in my parents room. tonight i'll be sleeping on my own bed again. hah!

today's agenda.

johan's moto club had organised a trip to seremban. just a visit and derma to the anak2 yatim hse and also the old folks' home. i tot it would be a boring trip but i was wrong. it was fun, actually. really fun with all those laughs and chit-chating..

we started our journey at 2 something and all the waiting and watching and konvoy-ing... we reached their house around 5..

sambil konvoy tu... my bro's bike got into an accident by his own pal. how sad is dat? but well everybody makes a silly mistakes. right? as long as no ones hurt.. its okay for me..

we break our fast at seri malaysia hotel in seremban. it was a small but a very clean hotel. i love it. i love the surrounding except the roadside outside. its too near and all those noises damn disturbing...

after that, we straight go back home. oh how wonderful it is... but i still hungry..!! huaaghhh!!

life sux

2009-08-23T18:23:00.003+08:00

sorry for so long i've never update this blog. its not like im really busy (despite that i had, a lil) but then mostly because the internet is sux and also.. i have tons of personal problems. yeahh, u can put it that way.

kawan2 mmg ada mcm2 ragam kan? mostly bad ones, thats for sure... yg baik bleh kira gune jari je. yg back stabbers? pergh! ramai kot... tp smua nye hipokrit. pandai gle menipu. gle seh.. tension aku sbb xnampak dr mule2 sapa kawan dan sapa lawan.

yg mane rapat tu, mmglah rapat. tp dlm rapat2 pn, still wanna do shit wit me. mmg sakit hati hentak pale.. demmit! but deep inside, pergh.. saba naz.. saba..

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everything in this life is like a roda. ape yg kite buat, kita dapat balik. correct onot? but den when we didnt do it.. ble org lain buat kat kita.. lame betul nk tgk pembalasan for 'em. life is not fair and everyone's not perfect.

mmg tak puas hati sometimes.. kesabaran jelah yg stop me from yelling.. cursing.. hentaking pale on the wall.. OMG! this is so tense! can u just understand the situation how i wanna deal with all of these shit??!

i dunno when and where did i go wrong till i had to get these stuff. or is it just me thinking bout it all negativity? please, don answer that question. its not for answering.

haihs... back to my old life again..

uhuk

2009-08-06T23:35:00.004+08:00

everytime i listen to this song.. i would remember about u.. yeah.. u.. no one else but u.. i'll put the lyrics here then.

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alleycats - hingga akhir nanti

Hingga akhir nanti
kau tetap jadi pujaan walau seribu tahun
walau seribu zaman kutetap menanti

Hingga akhir nanti kau saja idaman hati
segala rasa cinta segala rasa sayang
hanyalah untukmu
hingga akhir nanti

Bulan takkan terang tanpa seri wajahmu
hati takkan tenang tanpa kehadiranmu
rindu dalam sepi rindu dalam mimpi
kutetap menanti
hingga akhir nanti

Datanglah kekasih datanglah padaku
kesetiaan diriku janganlah kau ragu
betapa kukasih betapa kurindu
seandainya kau tahu benarnya cintaku

tension!

2009-08-04T15:34:00.002+08:00

who do u think u are to judge me.. there was someone who made me pissed off. angry too much till i was exploded once again. kene bomb teros. serve him rite!

h: slalu sakit sebab naz kurang senam ni...

fuck off! do u even noe my regular chores? activities? classes? no!
hell yeah.. i noe im fat. but cube tengok kat kelas aku tu.. sapa yg slalu ponteng? the one who lazy to do all the work.. the one who lazy to do the chores.. all the slims!

assumption.. stupid assumption.. maybe thats y the doctor let me go earlier than i tot. everytime she opened her mouth, we ended up debating. stupid. motherfucker. aishhh!!!

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bout my business.. thats another bagero punye bende i have to think of.

i tot i made a good decision not to be the head of the group but it turns out that i was wrong! bile aku tak klua idea, im not IN the team.. bile aku kluakan idea, bukan org nak appreciate. they will change and change..

lebih baik aku takyah kluakan idea langsung kan?? smua nak change kan? drpd sedap jadi the worst food ever. we'll see. budget profit.. budget profit.. tuh jek that everyone thinks of.

madam once said, its okay to have loss. the main thing is how we make our business stable back and if our profit is not great, the experiences that counts.

for wat i noe.. from now on.. im OFF! im tired of it! wateva other people nak buat.. sukati diorang...!!! aku dah tension!!!!

ho ho ho

2009-07-29T10:55:00.002+08:00

hepi besday to u...
hepi besday to u...
hepi besday to jojo...!!
hepi besday to u...

hooo~!!!!
today.. my bro genap masuk umo ke-24.. kan jojo? hahaha LOL kesian die~~ sorry. cant help it. still have to call u by that name. kuang3..

wait for me to come back this friday and we're going to rawk the house~ wee wee~ i got a gee gee~

p/s: im sorry for the craziness because i didnt get enough sleep; fact of that i studied accounting for the whole night and so.. the end.

tired

2009-07-27T19:45:00.001+08:00

back to my old life again.
always been bullied and pushed around just like a freakin toy.

always been the one who be by the side of the people i cherish.
but when they are with the people they cherish,
i am the one whom to blamed for every step that i made.

had NO bad intention
but the rumors will be around
hitting me while im drowning in my own tears.

am i wrong to be myself?
am i wrong to be nice?
am i wrong to be good?

everlasting

2009-07-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

I hope that today
And always
The love I have for you
Is reaching out
And touching you
Making your days
A little brighter
And your heart
A little warmer

I hope that today
And always
You are aware of how
Special you are to me
And how lucky I feel
To have you in my life
I ask myself
Why I have been
Blessed with someone
So understanding
And so caring…

Perhaps it’s because
I can truly appreciate you
Or maybe it’s because
God knew
I needed you so much

My best friend,
If I could give you
One thing,
I would give you
Ability to see yourself
As others see you…

Then you should realize
What a truly special
Person you are!

When we’re not together…
It isn’t just our friendship,
That I miss…

It isn’t the time we spent
Together
Or the fun we had…
I miss the trust and the
Understanding,
The giving and the sharing,
The peaceful companionship,
The silence and the noise
Of us…

I miss everything about you!

You dared me to think deeply,
To feel honestly,
To speak directly
I discovered a great joy
In trusting you
With the knowledge
You have of me

You are a special person
Of MY LIFE!

I want to tell you just how
Much your friendship means to me
And I want to give you,
Over and over again…

Everyday…
The gift of my friendship and love.
I don’t ever want to lose
Touch with you.

Once someone comes into my life,
I can’t just let them slip away,
I cannot accept that.

People are too important to me.

Once I care… I will always care
For best friends, I will always there
People in my past are part of my life,
Part of who I am,
And I don’t want them to disappear.

Keeping in touch is important to me…
Enough to let me know that
Although we don’t spend time together,
We do share some of the same
Thoughts and memories...

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haha. this what happened if my old hobby stuck in my mind back again. damn i missed the good old days..
i miss using these words.. tak kisah lah where or for what purpose kan.. enjoy reading but not copying ok?

kuang3...

2009-07-21T10:29:00.003+08:00

hepi besday to u...
hepi besday to u...
hepi besday to papa!!
hepi besday to u...

pada tanggal 21 Julai 1955..
papa lahir di dunia..
dgn itu.. beta mendoakan..

-! papa panjang umo
-! papa murah rejeki
-! papa makin encem
-! papa makin kayo (don 4get to give me some)
-! papa dpt tunaikan haji dgn baekk~~

ok.. im in the lab now. just did my presentation for website. haha. damn scary liao. they didnt noe who i am. coz afterall.. i am an extended student in this class. so i think wani and one of the chinese gurl are the two people who noes who i am.

anyway..
my website is about car. ok? its weird for a gurl to do it, but i did. im crazy over it. make story short... all the eyes were on me. and naturally i was shaking. luckily my voice didnt show it dat way and teacher loved it. fiuhh...

OMG!
theres this gurl presenting now but her voice is like a guy o.0 a big huge guy... relax man.. don be so fast! cant understand u!!!!

woot woot!

2009-07-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

hahah sorry matt for stealing ur code status "woot woot".. its just dat i lost my words to write here and im chatting wit u so its automatically came out u see. hahaha lol

celik tutup celik tutup.. its been 2 weeks and half since my last post here. gomenasai!! tade mase lahh *wink* quite busy with.. practically everything.. haha too much to be listed here and they're tooo private aites??

ok.. what happened to me lately...?
i got to know a group of remarkable good frends.. yeah.. good ones i must say.. (jgn kembang kalau bace tp mmg real pon...) i never had such fun since i met u guys. really grateful bout it. main components; fiq, ashy & acap ;)

update bout my health eh?
i went for a family day (ASNB department if im not mistaken lah).... as always, eri will make me as her babysitter. wherever i go, she will be behind me..following my steps.. even when i wanna do business, she wanted to join o.0 OMG...

but shes soo cute. such an angel. so i cant resist for not hugging her 80% when she's with me. haha.. padan muke ko. sapa suh melekat kat aku?? im such a hugger.. awww *wink*

i don wan to participate in any of the games.. but nak amik hati punye pasal.. i took one of it. and i took the hardest and worst. its kinda of my big mistake.. but hey, i had fun...?

the game: tarik the huge and not satisfying tali

"tarik!!! lepas!! tarikk!!"
skali lepas me and the geng smua terbang ke depan.. hahah the competitors were like half smaller den us but damn they're strong...

my hands.. especially my hips.. are in painful!!! T___T
i spent the whole night with nadia last night and she was the one who was looking after me and my seksa hips..
suddenly at midnite.. it struck again and i shouted, "waraghhhh!!!"
she was like, "syyyhhh.... calm down... let me see"
i was like... *blushed* "thank u...."

in the same occasion during my vacation in pd..

theres this macho guy...
i don wan to write his name here eventhough i noe he never read it.. for allah's sake.. he doesnt even noe who am i..
he was kinda dark but he got the malay looks.. its like, "pergh! lelaki melayu terakhir shial"
yeahh.. kinda like dat.. but its not that great afterall..

coz after awhile.. i looked at him and i was like.. OMG.. hes like gay... or at least.. he looks like a player..
tapi disbbkan his kinda dark.. farah and i labeled him as "the kampung playa!!"
hahahahha he didnt won the karaoke competition and im glad for it coz his voice? i think his dad better.. hahahahhaha LOL

my presentation and works...

i havent finish. EVERYTHING! hahaha smua like 76% finished.. yg lelain tu... there's no need to noe lah..
sesapa yg noe my style.. they will understand the occasion better.. hahaha =P

o'o

2009-06-30T02:01:00.002+08:00

woah..

fes time wey. in da acc class, i can finally concentrate. eventho i had alot of attractions around me.. haha (no offense mar, kee shen and yi) it just that u guys make me laugh so loud.. poor the hangusian.. mdm tot they're the ones who making the big laugh..

i didnt get 100% wat she said. but i got the points. eventho i had to open up the books for times.. haha sory mdm. no hard feelings aite?

i tried to ask her repeat it. but got a guy that really disturbing in dat class. cant remember his name. but hey, even if i noe,.. i wont put his name here. scared one of the readers is him. haha

he is soo annoying. come on.. she hasnt finish her explanation.. y did u ask her question?? teros tebantut die nak explain ttg ape yg aku tak paham tau tak.. menyebok betul!!

anyway.. i just finished the work she gave. so damn happy about it. hope to do again. gambatei!!

unforgettable part 2

2009-06-28T20:39:00.004+08:00

continue from the 1st part....
from johore, we went to pontian. my lil bro's place. damn i miss him.
te!! tunggu akak k?? i'll see u soon babey!!
hes soooo matured and kinda weird (?) rite now. he was just sitting beside me with no words comin out frm his mouth but only his glare..

anywho..
i was half sleepin in his house.. my impression cant be told in here.
so just try imagine it eh?
when along and her family wanted to go back, my mom, bro and lil bro went and sent them to the car.

me? cant climb down the stairs. its 4th floor wey.
aku dahlah setengah mati.. hahaha. ate too much i think..
den came the hating part again.. mls (My Life Sux)

that 'woman' told me that jet is takin her ijazah this year. who fuckin cares?
shes seriously pissing me off dude
as if im just playing around in this fuckin city
am I? fuck U! i study my ass till cant remember the time for me to eat
do u noe dat? no! u love to make it as if shes the best student afterall..

shes a completely as if a twin to my sister
a genius
so why do u have to compare wit me?
im just a typical student who half-knowing all the chapters aite??

its my fault. i kept the grudge..
im weak. i cant even fight her back. kept my mouth shut
did my own stuff.

but den today..
i was sooo rude.. to my mom. she asked me where jet will be takin the ijazah
and i answered in some irritating way
she was sad.. pissed off just like me last night

it came out from no where
i meant i had no intention in hurting her feelings
it just dat im soo jealous of her..
since i was a kid, all the couz love to compare me with her

shes the best in this, shes the best in that
shes so cute..
fuck off
i noe my weakness. i noe where i stand..

to the people who love to compare me with her,
do u noe ur own place to make a sound like dat?
fub (Fuck U Bitches!!!)

unforgettable part 1

2009-06-28T18:59:00.002+08:00

last friday..
nadia and i went for branch in mcDonalds. OMG. dah lame gile tak makan ayam spicy... really make my tastebuds go wohooo again!! haha.. after that, we had no idea wat to do..
and so, we went and stay over in nadia's house. its quiet but its comfortable. we talked bout soo many things dat i cant imagine... sambil main game die. pergh.. im addicted!

mom called. shes here in malacca. so i headed back to my house. stayed there like 10 minutes?
den here they were! jojo and mama. standing at the sliding door. haha
they shouted so many times but apparently i cant hear them..
1st reason, the music was loud.
2nd, i was in the toilet?

we started journey later that evening. headed to rnr and had our tea together.
the journey should be long but we still relax lah..
first, jojo drove. but when he keeps on hangguking his head, i asked him to give in.
hahaha i won! i drove the car. from malacca highway.. straight to petronas near johore's highway.

it was tiring, seriously!
i can still feel it till now. 2 hours and plus plus weyh! first time in history i drove that long.
it was awesome but it would be more nice if we were driving unser. more space and manual. hahaha

in johore, we were welcomed by along's family.
they were really nice. cant remember that much how they were before that big fight..
but past is past rite?

updated news =D

2009-06-21T12:30:00.004+08:00

last friday...
i was so hungry. the time showed 11.38pm.. so, me, bro & sis went out for a supper. thinking and thinking... *cliCK* mcDonalds please... hahaha

we first went to ss15 but there were soooo many people there! the parkings full... haih.. poor us babey..

the second place we went is damansara~ lala.. its far but its empty! hoo! but then, the spicy chiken was not in stock..! why soo many people love it so much till whenever we wanna eat, they'll have no stock!

i've had mcChiken instead.. but the daging keras gile! my teeth felt as if they're coming out whenever i tried to bite it out! my sis changed at the counter but i hid my face.. malonyee... i never tot that they would change it for us! helooo~~

we went out for a night out after that. bb, times square compound.. bangsar.. bangi.. u named it! it was the longest wan i must say.. we went back at 4am.. fiuhh... but i was half-sleeping in the car anyway. haha..

but then, i realized something. whenever my sis wanna do something wrong.. there would be a police car around.. and as usual, i freaked out! it was at night and in kl okay!! police there scary...

last night.. what a kenyangful night!

went for a movie. around 9.30pm in summit usj. title, +blood. originally from manga. i've heard bout it but i never took the opportunity to actually watch it. now, when it came to life.. i've watched it! yey!

it was awesome. i meant the actions. wow.. i never realized how ugly it would be to have a negro to be a vampire.. syish! damn ugly wey the looks.. can get nightmares for nights!!!

the main actress.. i fogot her name. but she was so cute. love the way she used the pedang! hoohh! damn scary anyway whenever she said the word... "go!"

i knew it that the mother would be the satan. it was predictable... cewah!! but the actress for the onigen.. wow! shes sooo beautiful T____T

after watched this movie, we went to have supper in puchong. my favourite char kuey teow!! hahah the actual price is rm3.. but i asked for extra. which would be rm4. haha. im satisfied with the food..

but malangnye.. i was so full till i cant open my eyes when we're on our way back in the car. hahahahahhahahahahaha

tense is around me

2009-06-19T20:08:00.003+08:00

hahaha i didnt put it here just yet. but i wanna say it.. only once ok? i went for the second class for my acc class. and it turned out to be a tenseful class. the class was bored to death and she already moved to the second topic. cant help it but seriously need to have some other attention so dat i wont be sleeping.. hahaha!

instead of being happy-go-lucky like usual i did in previous sems... she asked me.. "would u like 2share the story wit us?".. OMG! with wat type of tones lahh u're using??!!! i may look like a very bad student but please mdm.. respect lah wey!

that is sooooo tension weh!!! this is the impression i had in mind when she said that.. i answered, "nothing" but very slowly type.. i think she heard coz she jeling me as if she wanted to murder me at that moment! wahahahaha XDD

that was the first tenseful situation.

its not a police i intend to kill but a nurse. yesh! a nurse!!! went for a check-up in tabung haji. im soo anxious to have my body medical checked! i saw this nurse... not an old lady lah. but in middle age i guess.

she was soo nice to this young boy; who is absolutely 20 yrs old. i saw his borang anyway. but den when my time has come, she never even smile. when she smiled.. its as if shes not sincere!!

she put the cotton fulled with the alcohol at my arms.. brutally ok!! den she injected my arms with that needle WITHOUT ANY WARNING!! bukannye sbb kan inject i was sooo angry.. but den she was injecting at the place where she didnt sapu the cotton.

can u imagine how painful and how shocking i am??! i shouted but she said, "just a little".. WTF?! how do u feel if i put that needle into ur brain huh?! motha***** bi***... damn..

shes lucky for i wanna go there with good purpose. if not, i'll be cursing there.. non stop... dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!! =.="

that was the second tenseful situation.

tagged by Cs

2009-06-16T14:38:00.005+08:00

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
- with eggs and chilli sauce.. wat is it called?

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
- ermmm that would be d-nangka, bkt katil, malacca XD

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
- nasi goreng mama

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
- absolutely cheese, tuna.. and big big chicken.. hahahaha

What do you like to put on your toast?
- susu~~~

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
- 6

What color of cell phone do you have?
- pink and white

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
- left-handed... but writting on right?

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
- my body?? ermm.. my sist (ketumbuhan) and also... are teeth considered??

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
- a bucket of onions

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
- err... alot of times?

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
- no thanx

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
- to something exotic! hahaha

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
- ermm... if its the LIFE sauce, i would. taste sweet rather than hot! haha

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
- 3 i think

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
- few weeks ago

Last person you talked to?
- mama

Last person you hugged?
- mama

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
- autumn

Holiday?
- raya!!!

Day of the week?
- saturday

Month?
- july!!

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
- yeap....

Mood?
- tired

What are you listening to?
- BCL - Aku dan Dirimu

Watching?
- My Bloggy

Worrying about?
- results T_____T

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
- kitchen. hahaha!

What's the last movie you saw?
- dirty dancing

Do you smile often?
- yeap. sure lah. sedakah!!

1) Do you always answer your phone?
- not really

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
- alot of ppl.. random!

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
- totally 90% white!

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
- err.. where is that again?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
- not yet. hah!

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
- alot...

7) Favorite Christmas song?
- chipmunks song. i fogot...

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
- i have no ideas

9) Can you do push ups?
- who do u think u talking to?

10) Can you do a chin up?
- ape tuh???

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
- more clumsy adelah!

12) Do you have any saved texts?
- lazy to save

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
- alot! ahahhaha

14) Do you have an accent?
- yeap.. chinese... haihhh

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
- ryan cabrera - true

16) Plans tonight?
- dont wanna sleep..!

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
- errr... no?

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
- sayor... ikan.. ayam!! XD

19) Have you ever been given roses?
- yep

20) Current worry?
- kain baju tak kering

21) Current hate right now?
- my speakers

22) Met someone who changed your life?
not really

23) How did you bring in the New Year!
sleeping in the bed

24)What song represents you now?
Follow Me by Uncle Kraker

25) Name three people who might complete this?
Diyana, Mas and Jo

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
tegolek atas katil

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
lazynyee nak gi kelas

huh!!

2009-06-16T13:05:00.002+08:00

fes thing in the morning; bath lah wey! haha takkan tu pon tatau kot!!

right after i reached the campus, 1 stop centre (or wateva it is) the first place i went. haha. kantoi plak dgn kakak tu yg aku penah kene saman..

a: nurnazura?
n: yerp...
a: penah kene saman ek?
n: haa..... ngeeeeee =D

luckily alia paid for me edi few weeks ago. if not, i cant apply for another car sticker. hishh. tuh pon nak kira teruk. wtf??

den the second place i went is ps! yerpp.. i wanted to find top-up for digi. boleh x i went like 3 DIFFERENT SHOPS!! and there arent one!! damn!

BUT!!!

i saw a male sitting beside the clinic. hes neither handsome or smart, but he seriously caught my eye. he looks like hes lost but at the same time, his eyes really beautiful. is this a crush? OMG! haha.

i called monique. tot of going out for lunch with her. the timing like 11.45am. haih.. she was busy. nvm, i'll find anotha company. besemangat nih nak gi kelas. sekali when i reached there, i feel like kicking the door and destroyed the class. there's a notice written there.

"PBU 0015 - intro to buss management. class will be starting in week 2"

huaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! buat penat jek gi kelas!!!!! huaghhh!!!!!!! *transformmmmm become hulk!!!*

i called pacek f. asked him out for lunch. lucky hes free. at least i have company to have my lunch.

but anywho... im back in the house and i saw the dvd cs lend me b4. "dirty dancing"...
last night i watched it and it made me became a hyper! hahaha. i am seriously gonna take spanish as my third language! hahaha.

watch out!! heres the main actor and im stuck with him!! pleaseeeee let me have someone like him!! XD hahahahhahaha

diego luna.... im struckk by ur sexinesss!!!!

fes class

2009-06-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

fes class: accounting 2

time: 2-4 PM
duration: less than 10 minutes
person in charge: mdm cant-remember-the-name

went inside the class... all that i can see are the faces from my previous acc 1 class. oh hoo.. and the list.. i think 90% my previous classmates. but none of them came. ceitt.. tak besemangat betul!

i waited.. and waited.. there she comes.. a cute lil lady with a long tudung. huh! isnt it hot outside? hahaha (naz! tak baik ejek org) when she started to talk, alamak! this is a problem..

the problem: her voice is slower.. no! less volume than my english teacher's.
the most tension part: my eyes are getting smaller.. krrooihhhh!!

and so.. there goes my first class. tak sampai 10 minutes but then she dah sediakan assignments! hooohh!! damn cruel this life.. bukan senang nak senang.. haihhh...

huaghhhhH!!!!

2009-06-15T12:40:00.002+08:00

fes day of the new last sem!

this is my new motto pixtaaa! i'll whip all the subjects off and make sure i'll succeed more! hoooo!! <-- otak dah mereng... this blog updated.. thanks to my bro who is anxious and over-excited for wat i will post here. but hey, i still post. its just dat i'm lazy. plus, the internet is off once i return this celcom broadband to kjannah. haih.. poor me! >.<

i arrived here last saturday. should be on friday. but i was really sick (kinda of lah) den we changed plan. once we arrived, start the cleaning activities.. fuhh..! lawa rumah kuh jadinyaa.. tapi i lazy to put it here. so, if u wanna see it.. please come over aite?

last night was the worst. usually i have someone to talk, or shout or laugh out loud like a mad fella. but not last night. it was sooo quiet till i can hear the cengkerik outside garuk its butt. damn its boring and hot!!!

wake up in the morning with my eyes covered by my hair.. i went to the toilet and again, my lips koyak. haha. salah pusing, my braces cocok my lips again. haih.. tape! demi gigi cantek!!

cant wait to go back again this wednesday. hope my medical chekcup would turn out to be just fine. haih. wish me all the best! =D ngeee....

oh yea, did i post it already? haha. i cooked today. the same dish my mom usually cooked. asparagus.. nyum3.. don u look at me like dat ok! i can cook! but most of the time im lazy. but i have not enuf money edi. too much enjoy (serve me right.. i noe!) and so, i cooked and i ate..

afterwards.. two oclock.. my fes class. accounting 2. pleaseee! i hope my previous teacher is teaching me. shes the best!! i lurve the way u taught us madam!! muax!!

a hell of a day

2009-06-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

haha. as u can see here, this is chingsin's birthday present from me and dear diyana =) but i cant put the price here eventhough i noe cs wont be reading it. haha. its a top secret u see...

but den, i started journey to di's house around 12 sth. but come on... im not sure where am i going!?? its agak far away from my house. like 30 mins far... but its okay for me. thinking bout lepaking.

den, came that idea of buying cs's present. coz both of us cant really spend time with her yet. shes busy wit her stpm stuff.. haih.. gudluck to u gurl! go go chingsin!

i went out wit those two and u noe how loud can we be? haha its sooo loud till everyone was looking at us like a pair of freaks-show! we were looking at those clothes.. damn they're beautiful and hot! but we found this! yes, this!!

the freaking tengkorak red-color sweater~~

shit

2009-06-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

siyes ngantuk.. tapi mata takley nak tido..

anxious bout tomoro but scared at the same time..
hope everything would be fine...

ramai orang, banyak ragam.
banyak ragam, masalah timbul.
masalah timbul, hati sakit.
makan hati, akal gile.

pe la nasib...?

short seems long

2009-06-03T02:12:00.004+08:00

it's been long time since i've heard news frm my frends and suddenly, kebom!! everybody's contacting me. its not shocking but its wonderful. at least i've realized. there's still some frends that remembered.

some time yesterday...

f: yalah! so long never see u!
n: miss me izzit??
f: haha.. yeah, alot!

hahahahaha...

z: naz! jmpe tauu!
n: yea yea! dtg jek.. i'll drive ;)
z: yey!!

again last night

j: u said when u're back in usj, u'll text?
n: i will ;)
j: be sure about that.

ekekekekekkee...

earlier today

n: i miss u gurl!
d: i noe..! we'll hang out together aites??
n: sure thing!

im happy... i hope it'll last. wat i heard before from my seniors were true.. long distance friends last longer than closer. and they are true... ;)

untitled.

2009-06-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

speechless,
when you're around.

words,
undefined when you're in my arms.

love,
when our heart be as one.

1437.

tired!

2009-06-01T20:48:00.003+08:00

cant feel my own feet. papa bulied me.

P: come on! move it!
N: huh?? *open up an eye and yawn again*
P: lets go jogg!!
N: huh??!!!

later on, papa said something that made me "unsleepy"...

P: im going to do 7. and u're going to do 5..
N: erm....
N: woahh! wat a minute! 5 wat??
P: rounds!!! come come *smilee*

dammit... im so tired. feel as if my feet arent mine anymore... huaaaaaaa
not becoz only of jogg too much... but also i had to follow them to monthly shopping

at fes, we went for tesco shah alam. am i amazed! its been so long i never been there. and i feel so relax. i donno why. i love to go such places...!

and then, we went for carrefour for lunch. oh my god! mama bought me 5 pair of baju kurung!!! beautiful ones i must say. total = rm360 but the style = speechless! they are so beautiful and so needly done!

then, i bought my shampoo. haaa.. at last, i found my own brand of shampoo. just nice for my hair. hope it'll turn out to be just fine...

=)

huaaaaghhhhh

2009-05-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

its not my fault!!!
its an old story that has been told over and over!!
y am i to blamed??
y am i to be mad at??

Movie Review Listings

2009-05-31T18:19:00.002+08:00

theres alloooottt of movie i've watched. and im not pretty sure which one to talk about but... hey... i still gonna write about it.. but please give me some time to type it real slow.. and here we go!

1. cite nihhh rate die 4/5,.. telampau banyak fikir.. if u cant understand english, pls don try to watch this movie. too much talking tooo! but there is still some humour in it that we can catch it. its pretty good, eh? just to make sure no one gets to sleep in the cinema. hahaha

the actions and the puzzle.. ermm.. quite interesting. very challenging if im the main actor...

2. the sequel for the first one... but truthfully, i think this movie is much better in its funny angle if compared to the first 1. there's no reason to stop laughing at all! every moment.. sure got its funny part, especially where the kahmunrah!! acted like a kid.. lol

3. wat do we call a movie that haunted its own spectator at home for 3 nights straight huh??!! maybe a seriously thumb-up movie that expert in making people screaming in the cinema.. hahahaha

seriously, the ghost and the make-ups are superb! but the story is a... bit pity lah. i meant for the ghost, honestly! if i was her, i would kill every one of my spectator too.. but not in scary way as she did. coz its very horrible and bloody.. yuck!

4. the terminator. hohhh!! i've been waiting this movie for so long coz i knew the actor would be superb. not the christian bale i meant. but the second 1. im not sure wats the name but he carried out a name of "marcus" in the movie.

hes hot. thats wat important to me. hahah. lol. this movie compiles everything back to the puzzle from number 1 to 3. but obviously, there's still no of people who cant understand it. kesian.. kesian...

5. hah! this is the main point of writing back in my blog. monsters vs aliens. damn i love it sooo much!! i love u bob.. yesh i meant it!! u're so cute, u juggling little blue food..

its hillarious. and its true! u should watch. definitely yes-yes to this movie. eventhough its not as nice as shrek, or monsters or toy story.. but it still captures the heart of cartoon-lover like me. hahahaha

6. the last but not the least... hes hot, hes cool and hes super strong...! this story revealed everything that we've been wanting to know about wolverine. and poor that boy.. he didnt realized that he has killed his own brother, sabertooth in the first movie..

his brother, im not sure his name in this movie.. is quite hot without any of the bulu2 thingy on his face. but the love of his life is heloooo! shes hot too! and she is totally in love with him eventhough that stupid bold guy asked her to play with his heart...

whos not gonna fall in love with the wolverine?? come on.. hes one good looking guy! somemore she has to stay with him for 6 years.. awww... thats soo sweet...

2009-05-30T03:23:00.001+08:00

hahaha....
at fes, im speechless ok? i donno which phone to buy... until i saw a friend using this same very phone infront of my eyes..
its under rm900.. just the description needed by my mom to let me buy.. and it has everything i need..

the style, good camera, nice music.. and silk color that would be my favourite pink!
credit to the person who showed and let me buy; my siblings, my mom, abg epul, syafiq ;)

Stardust (2007)

2009-05-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

since the first time i heard about this movie, i was like... "urgh... i cant get it out my mind! i wanna watch!!!" but i didnt. no one interested in this movie. they said its boring! but i was like, when people say its boring.. it should be interesting for me. hahaha lol!

abuden... make long story short... i was preparing myself for my paper on the other day. damn boring i tell u. den i was like, maybe i can read galaxie for awhile. just to make my mind off the assignment and stuff.

open up the galaxie and i saw this! yes this! the pix above this! i was like yeshaaa! i don care. i really have to ask mas to download this movie for me...

n: oit.. download for me please. stardust 2007... its a english movie =D
m: ermmm... okay lah
n: thanx

after 30 minutes...

m: download edi..
n: *blushing and shining* thank U!!!!

once i arrived home on last thurs, i straight away go to the lappy.. open up the folder. fuck.. still don have the subs.. right after download the subs.. i started to watch it..

damn i love this movie! my guess is rite. this movie hurm.. how to put this.. if u put away all the magics, the actions and the nonsense.. its a beautiful love story. and i really love it. how lucky the star is when she has the love of charlie cox! (whom i think kinda hot with the haircut and his clothing! damn im meltedd....)

the witches... haihh.. that preaking word also means evil rite.. so they are so ugly! ewww.. nice make ups bytheway. thumbs up for that...

shakespear.. i forgot how to spell the name but according to the real books, he is actually gay-ish. he has a bf and the poet for form 5 books if im not mistaken.. its not for his wife.. but for his gay partner. hah!

in this movie.. theres a pirate by the name of shakespear and he too kinda gay. the way he walks.. talks and dress up.. he became a pirate just to keep his father's reputation which i think kinda sux. hahah. u cant do wat u wan... and thats.. painful... =P

overall okaylah that movie.. really like the hero and heroine. they're beautiful together.. when larr i will get a guy like dat for my own. amin......!

WTF!

2009-05-16T02:08:00.003+08:00

* when u are crying, that person will hug u and say everything would turn out to be fine
* when u cant do ur own piece of work, the person will say i'll help what u'll need
* when u say u need help, the person will knock on ur door even when that person still have mountain of work to do
* when u are out of love, the person would say its alright
* when u are feeling unhealthy and no other people care, the person will bring u go to the right place u should be at
* when u have no other people around to hang out with, the person will eat with u, make u smile and laugh out loud like there no ones business

am i the person u seek when ONLY u're in these situations? am i that low life that makes u think u can do this.. why are u even doing this...

by the time,

* when u are happy, u'll forget this person
* when u are in love, u'll never notice whether this person is around
* when u are healthy, u'll never ask even when this person is freakin pale
* when u have everybody around, u'll never even say hi to this person
* when u have the attention u want, u'll never talk or hang around no more

i know where i am standing and i noe im not perfect... but at least im not like u. a hypocrite, a twisted tongue and two faced person whom i believed as a friend. thanx for ur "hospitality"...

misery or happiness?

2009-05-05T01:08:00.002+08:00

i've checked. i'll be in cyber for my degree. i donno whether this is a good news or wat.. but i do think its a good news to the people who hate me here. and i know that those people are the same ones who are near around me..

i think its the best choice for me to go there... dont u think?

Lucky Lyrics(Unplugged)

2009-05-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

nie lagu lucky unplugged version aku.. korang asyik dgr lagu jason mraz nyanyi dgn sapa minah caliiat tu kan.. ni senang jek.. korang angkat bantal pelok korang yg panjang tu.. ala2 buat cam gita dan nyanyi dgn sore gagak korang.. okay??

1...2.. and 1 2 3.. go!

do u hear me...
bebel to u...
acroosss the water..
acrosss the deep blur lautt..
bawah the open sky..

oh bebeh im trying...

laki i hear u...
in my dreams...
rase ko bebel across the sea...
keep u dgn aku...
in my heart...

tuah im in love with my bestfren
tuah i have been mane i been...

pastu aku tak ingat lyrics dah.. its midnite edi.. wat do u expect.. try to figure out others by urself okay.. i lead u guys good enuf edi..

the wrong timing... and feelings?

2009-05-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

i bet u guys would wondering why the fuck i put this (yeah.. this!!) as my title of today's topic. i mean, seriously.. now im quite blur with who and when and why should i love... people would take me the wrong way even when im the right path. u noe what i mean..

if i said to u, i love u.. that doesn't mean im in love with u. yeah.. thats what i mean in the first place. but people take it seriously and it caused alot of trouble to myself. haih naz.. better be alone by urself again and thats the best choice u have for now..

should i change for people or should i be alone and keep this to the end of my life...

yeah.. that is a tough question with no proper and confirm answer..

whenever im near to someone, i'll be warned by the partner... its not like i never been in love till i donno how they feel.. but im not that "noticable" type.. i mean, im not a hot chick that confirmly people must be jealous whenever im with someone whos taken!!! haihh... tension2...

even when im with a gurl.. the partner would be jealous. ya Allah! im a gurl.. why should the male be jealous??! im not a lesbian for Allah's sake..!!

shitlarh.. u noe wut?? don worry boys and gurls out there.. im off from the close friendship when i noe u're taken! i wan no more trouble...

new love, new day!

2009-04-21T17:07:00.002+08:00

everything is settled right now. kinda relieved though. now i can finally take in a deep breath and say "ahhhhh!!!"... shes moving out from this blardy room and i cant help smiling alone. damn! im just like a crazy witch weyh!

anyway... new love right? haha don think of someone else. its something else! i mean, the new house i'll be renting. fuyoo! i love it wey! peaceful liao! u can see through my smiling face now that i love it so much! just like home.... haaaaa......

try to imagine larh.. one big house, ALONE! hahaha. yesterday my gurlfren dropped by just 2 shi shi.. den when we wanna go out from the house 2find some food... while im locking the gate...

N: haiyoo! y this lockk don wanna lock lahrhh???!
E: rileks lahh.. try to pusing2 it fes..
N: damn!

from the woods beside us: AUUWWWWWW!!!

N: gulp! look at E
E: err... faster please???
N: but i cant get this thing on!! o ohhh.....

kelekak~ that gate lock..

E: faster run to the car!!!
and we saved... but i seriously lock the car wey. dangerous lah there at night. shit man! hahaha

kemaluan melanda

2009-04-09T13:51:00.002+08:00

jam 1210: my heart beats out loud and woke me from sleep.. "damn! im late!!!"

jam 1220: in class...
n: "haih... wtf teacher is teaching now...?"
n: ey ey.. wat teacher is teaching lahh?
l : i donno.. i oso come late like u...
n: swt! =.="

jam 120: in class...
n: "y i am feeling kinda weird?"
look down on my legs and luckily i was the only 1 sitting there. alone. y?

i used different cloth and different kain.. doesn't match at all.. i mean i can cover if the color is the same.. but its not. one is black and white and another is green.

n: "wtf??!!!" >> ran away back to home...

jam 140: at home...
no wonder everyone stares at me..... i really don wanna go out now.. i felt as if i've lost my freaking nose XD

love is in the air

2009-04-08T14:12:00.002+08:00

its kinda amazing wat love can do to us. seriously, try to think about it. it can changes people inside out. there are some who appreciate it, and cherish every second of it but there are some who don't.

love can never be bond without the the cooperation of the two hearts, isn't it?

kempunan!

2009-04-02T19:56:00.003+08:00

uuuuuhhhhhhh *take one deep breath*

...piza tuna, spaghetti bolognese, ikan lauk kicap, nasi goreng mama, udang goreng tepong, ayam kentaki mama, kerang rebus, telur mate lembu pecah, saudi cheese, asam pedas, sweet sour ikan...

ahhhhhhhhhhh *lega*

weird-ah!

2009-03-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

ok... this is my first time 2hav a bed in living room.. its seriously weird.. i don wanna take pix 4now coz i jus woke up so u can imagine urself how ugly it is.. hahaha XD

hot + fight + loudness of ppl around the block = bed in living room

my family moved it so that i can get all the PEACE + COLD + QUIET place 2rest.. and obviously i got all of it.. but den, its memalukan OK???!! hahahahah

let me announce it, "I, NAZ WOULD NEVER ALLOW ANYMORE PEOPLE ENTER MY HOUSE COZ MY BED IS IN THE LIVING ROOM!"

thank u. thats all 4now. later!

dirty "huge" secret

2009-03-23T15:44:00.003+08:00

we all have secrets. some are bad and some are goods. but most of them are disaster. why.. that is the main reason why is kept as a secret isn't it? even when we decided to keep it down and low.. one day, it will be discovered. why.. if not by our own mistakes... it would be from someone else who promised to keep it, wouldn't it?

"trust no one but one self"

yeah. that's the main truth. no one else can be trusted nowadays. whoever call themselves as friends play few roles and create no more than stupid lies. what a joke!

believe or not i discovered who were my real friends and who were my enemies. hell yeah i couldn't believe my own eyes. the people i thought to be trustworthy turns out to be an A-hole. and the people i never believed in to be helping me were the ones who busted their own arse and make sure i was okay back then.

isn't hard to find someone who really cherish us? who really appreciate us?

"tepuk dada tanya selera"

the person who i supposed to believed in told me this and he turns out to be the one i shall never trust in anymore. he was a real jerk and full of lies. he was the person i called as a god-brother but soon after that, he didn't help me but make me felt worse. the worst feeling i ever had in years..

in years... i meant that was the time i lost interest in my own flesh and blood brother. that was the same feeling i had and it felt like shit! doesn't mean i don't love him anymore. but i just felt disowned.. and i felt as if i was not important anymore in his life.

if someone ask me this, "are u feeling ungrateful?"...

the answer is no. i feel grateful to have a brother. fights are just like a simple meal for us. without it, we wouldn't call ourselves as family. isn't it right??

however,...

if someone ask me this type of question, "are u feeling as if ur own brother doesn't appreciate u as u do to him?"

then the answer is yes.

crazee

2009-03-05T03:46:00.004+08:00

am i crazee o wat...
i cant sleep... i cant snore.. i can breathe okay.. aghhh shit.. im anxious and excited to go back!!!!! i wonder why.. its like not seeing them in years.. sedangkan baru jek 2 minggu kOT!!

aku saja letak gamba nihh sbb otak aku tak betul skrg okay..
im thinking bout something... SE walkman is getting nicer and my baby nokia cant even co-op with my SE.. i think i wanna sell in my SE and take in a brand-new SE.. wat do u think? a hp can actually i type very fast..
maybe as fast as my baby nokia..

anywho... i dah checked out the website.. and its a definitely NO-NO! hp mmg lah banyak choice but come on man! where do i get such money?? its better off i relax first. maybe i'll study harder and make a deal with mama. i wanna an iPhone. can i? hahahaha in my dreams!

update

2009-03-05T02:58:00.003+08:00

i cant admit that matter of fact, i like my lifestyle right now. but its just dont fit myself just yet. wat the purpose i type this thing anyway?? this is not wat i wanna tell u guys oso.. haha

this pix i took earlier in english class. mdm was babbling infront when i took this pix. she was like smiling half way to see our gelagat inside the class. some of us sleeping, taking pix (like me), and uhh eating nuggets? hahah they said they were their breakfast and mdm was like.. "no more eating in my class"... lame!!!! hahahaah XD swt!

ermmm
well its all started with my new earrings.. actually i admit lah.. i wanted to have more than 1 pierce. and dat day when i wanna buy for my one and only sepasang anting2..the lubang vanished.. so have to redo it again..

so i did. and i added 2 more pasangan.. and now both ears have 3 piercing. yeah, i noe. im totally busted right now coz my bro and sis surely read this post.. but come on lah.. till when i wanna keep this as a secret..

plus, its cheap to do it in malacca. and yea.. 10 ringgit is cheap rite for 2 more piercing?? and urghh.. i donno how to cover it up coz i always tie my hair up... i hope my parents wont realized them but when i kept thinking over and over...

my heart said "naz.. they will know sooner or later. they're your parents for allah's sake"

so here i typing about my piercing...

and urghh... bout shisha-ing.. everytime i eat at the kedai.. i always get to smoke shisha for free. well, those abang are my frends now and its not like i believed them totally 100% but overall they're better off than my MMU sakai frends.. (the one i rapat is excluded OK??)

im kinda smart in it already and i can setting it. hoo! credit to atong.. thanx bro.. i've graduated for shisha-ing!! hahahha dats lame!! i noe.. but hey, its rare to see a gurl can do a nice, addictive shisha.. hahahahah

one day if mama buy.. pergh! i'll make the whole house smoky babey (which i dont think it would actually happen) tapi manalah taukan.. everything is not impossible right now.. oh well, i missed all the family events.. i miss my family..

but den i also gained more friends here. and i really appreciate them.. oh yea.. my studies?? damn man.. my lecturers are OK! i love them. seriously (eventhough i cant believe i admit it but i did, obviously)... they helped me alot..

EXCEPT!!! the statistic lecturer.. damn i blur.. she taught me like a rocket wanna fly to the outer space weh. how fast is dat?? each class she can finish 1 chapter.. and believe me.. only half class can understand her teaching and hehehe.. her language? lol.. funny liao..

its not like i kutuk her or something. overall shes okay. but den, i cant understand even how many times she tried to teach and explained to me.. its okay.. i hope i can catch up soon and make sure my midterm nice and steady.. unlike the first trimester...

wave

2009-02-23T16:11:00.002+08:00

wave.
what do u see.. when it comes to the word of wave..
what do u feel.. what does ur heart say..

to me..
wave is just like friendship
it can comes in many ways.. in different approach..
in different size..
but it will fade away

we cant decide
when, where or even who
but what we noe is..
as long the friendship can last,
we should cherish each and every second of it

but what is the purpose i write here..
as for u noe.. im fed up edi..
even when i cherish my friendships
they dont

think about it.

Geng; Upin dan Ipin (2009)

2009-02-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

Ada sesuatu yang mengganggu ketenteraman Kampung Durian Runtuh. Penduduk kampung menyebarkan cerita tentang kewujudan suatu makhluk yang menggerunkan menjelang waktu malam, namun tiada siapa yang berani mencari kebenaran disebaliknya...

Sehinggalah Badrol dan Lim, serta rakan-rakan baru mereka terjerumus ke dalam misteri tersebut tanpa disengajakan. Seekor haiwan aneh yang tidak diketahui asalnya, menjalin persahabatan dengan Rajoo dan membawa mereka semua ke suatu pengembaraan, jauh ke dalam hutan hujan Malaysia yang penuh dengan hidupan liar, termasuk seekor ular gergasi yang mistik. Sertai mereka, dalam mengungkap misteri dan merentasi cabaran di sekitar keindahan panorama flora dan fauna Malaysia.

Comments!!!

i was suprised earlier with the call i had from my parents. they were lining up in the cinema place just to get this movie ticket and it was worth it. this story shows us that malaysians can make a perfect and seriously cool cartoon movie like this. unlimited moments of laughing and crying in the cinema makes me realized that this movie.. this cartoon i must say.. can give us alot of morale values..friendship; team spirit; fear of the dark; tenderness between mother and child

tagged by Mas

2009-02-05T14:56:00.002+08:00

Haih .. non-stop i've been tagged for these few month..and dis time, from my own sis.. mas mas... memang kamo mau kenekan beta bukan.. hahaha. here i go..
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Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you (so that he/she can read your list). If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. i love to laugh like mad fella
2. im popular wit the name of bear2 (perasan)
3. suke berangan (...mdm sivarani said.. imagination is important!)
4. alot of people tot im chindian n not a true malay
5. im a good gurl.. (huahuahua)
6. without mp3, my life is not complete
7. have my own 10 collection of bank account (hooo!!!)
8. love cartoon more than any other entertainment
9. teddy bear - die - hard - fan!
10. air kosong is my cup of tea
11. nano2 is my vice
12. cherish johnson's n johnson's products so much
13. a fan of english literature
14. have a big collection of teddy bear..
15. i have a beautiful but gangster-type-of family (beware!)
16. dun like to wear seluar (wth...XD)
17. one of the greatest band i really love is disturbed
18. hate cheese... especially on the cake
19. coke n coffee make me sleepy
20. blood can make me k.o!
21. black, blue, and yellow are my ex-favourite color
22. red,pink,purple, and green are my current-favourite color
23. my cars... my husbands.. tiara n matrix.. (im using it! so its mine! all mine!! XD)
24. have two most supporting siblings.. mas n joe
25. lost uncounted numbers of bantal busuk (huwaaaa!!! mama buang!!!)

the person i would like to tagged... (miahahahahha!!!)
1. apit!!!
2. kak fana
3. rafiq
4. dilla
5. chingsin
6. diyana
7. pooh bear
8. prosperity aness
9. syafiq miaooo
10. anas
11. johan
12. hoong yau
13. muzz
14. jaa
15. elizabeth
16. lanchester
17. ratna
18. ekin
19. budin
20. aiman
21. kak mutie
22. kak ruffirah
23. aep
24. proggie
25. whoever read this fucking post! huahuahuahau!!!

Tagged by RafiQue

2009-02-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

im sorry fiq! never noticed u tagged me during i donno.. maybe 25th of jan?? seriously i never notice that one.. anyway, here it is!! enjoy~
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1. the person who tag u is?
rafiQue~kuh

2. ur relationship wit her/him is?
ma besh pal ^^

3. ur impression of her/him is?
the most sweet and caring guy i've ever met

4. the most memorable thing she/he had done for u?
err... heheh.. everything that he does?

5. the most memorable thing she/he had said to u?
the way he calls my name.. hahaha

6. if she/he become ur lover u will?
err... yea if he really mean it..

7. if she/he become ur lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
nothing. i like everything he is now and always.

8. if she/he become ur enemy, u will?
never! i would cry every night if he does dowhh

9. if she/he become ur enemy, the reason will be?
maybe misunderstand jek kot..

10. the most desired thing u want to do for her/him now is?
be his true friend =)

11. ur overall impression of her/him is?
as above laarrr

12. how u think people around u will feel about u?
gile gile punye pale otak

13. the characters u love of urself are?
my never-ending-happy-go-lucky!

14. on the contrary, da character u hate urself are?
i always kept things deeply and cried over it myself...

15. the most ideal person u want to be is?
my mom

16. for people that care and like u, say something 2 them..
i love u guys so much.. i dont care how bad u are... or even how u looks.. but the most important thing is.. u appreciate our friendship and i really glad about it. muax!

17. pass this quiz to 10 persons that u wished to noe how they feel about u..
- Mas
- Joe
- Farhana
- Apit!! (jangan lari..!!)
- Ching Sin (like always...)
- Chapit!!!!!
- Diyana My Darling...
- Prosperity! (i noe u always view my blog dear)
- Pooh Bear
- Anas kot..... (kalau die bace lor.. huuuu!!)

18. who is no 6 having relationship with?
how the hell i should noe?

19. is no 9 is a male or female?
female of course.. kan Pooh?

20. if number 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
hahahahha! cant imagine it weyy!

21. wat is no 2 studying about?
nope. hes working now

22. when was the last time u had chat with no 3?
few weeks i guess

23. what kind of music band does no 8 like?
romantic (i got listen to her laptop once!)

24. does no 1 have any siblings?
me and no 2

25. will u woo number 3?
asif..

26. how bout number 7?
wanna die?

27. is number 4 single?
no hes not

28. what is the surname of number 5?
Wong

29. Whats the hobby of number 10?
oh shit.. u got 2be kidding me

30. Does number 5 and 9 get along well?
they're never met

31. where is number 2 studying at?
i thought i told u hes working..??

32. talk something bout casually about number 1?
shes cool~

33. have u tried developing feelings for number 6?
err should i?

34. where does number 9 live at?
i donno. USJ?

35. what color does number 4 like?
black!

36. are number 5 and 1 best friends?
no

37. is number 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hahah damn rite u are!

38. what is number 6 doing now?
online but playing games...

demam (again...)

2009-02-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

i was confused earlier whether i should go back today or tomorrow but at last my sister forced me to go back today because at least i have one more day to rest.. and have a wonderful first day..of my third sem...

but unfortunately...
im still having fever as bad as always. my nose cant stop flowing down.. aish.. damn painful wey! i hate it.. i ate the pills but they didn't work on me anymore. how sad is that??

in my heart, there are partition. partition on some of my friends. im still confused who to befriend and who i shouldnt be friend.. all i can see is that they're good and bad in many different occassion. thats why i cant make my mind..

but oh well.. studies first naz.. you still have great roads infront of you...

Inkheart

2009-01-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

Director: Iain Softley

Writers : David Lindsay-Abaire & Cornelia Funke

Release Date: 23 January 2009

Genre: Adventure | Family | Fantasy

Summary: An adventure of a father and his young daughter, searching for a long lost book that will help reunite a missing, close relative, this fantasy takes a darker side whenever we hear Mo 'Silvertongue' Folchart reading out aloud from books. His ability to rise to life, to export, to release figures out of the page and into the real world is only relevant when the darker side of his stories appear to reek havoc and destruction. Join in the fantasy and revel at the marvel of Books in this adventure of adventures' that brings the best stories throughout the decades to life that transcends beyond imagine.

Comments!!!
my bro said that his frends told him this book.. this story is boring and it has the same concept as the bedtime story but he himself was wrong. this film is not a comedy film but it is a touching family love story and it brings out the passion of reading to every single heart of the spectators. its a complicated story where you cant understand it at the beginning but in the end, you would find it as a spectacular story. its much more better than the latest harry potter film sorry to say. it is fulled with magic and action. definitely must watch for those who are book lovers.

Morale
all the people in this world has their own chance to change their fate. its not depending to the writer or god but its our decision to make. this very story even when it is at its peek, it still tells us not to give up what we have. and of course, the courage, the friendship we made must be true in our heart. not only on the tongue.

a memory....

2009-01-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

again my head hurts. ohh.. my brother called out my name so loud as if my skull was going to crack into half.. my pyjamas dress was up on my knees when he was trying to pull the sheets off. luckily i shouted out loud bout it. if not, he would be blind i guess.. XD

the clock is ticking and suddenly i've got a sms frm my dear sayang.. "hoho! now i have to change!".. so i rushed to the toilet and cleaned myself.. i admit it was really fast than usual. haha. maybe im too worried i'll be late picking her up! along with her lil bro..

i drove to ktm subang. oh my god.. do u noe.. i dun trust any cars with OR without P. they all drive as if its their grandfather's road n really pissed me off. i honked out loud when that lady tried to bang my car. wat an arse!

oh well.. i arrived on time. i was really glad when i saw their happy faces coming to my car and we straight continue our journey to Pyramid. nothing there, seriously. but we just couldnt get enough of it. it is our highschool's place and memories.. hehehehe of evilness...

after a long window shopping along with non-stop-coke-refilling McD.. 6 hours of buzzing around and played those tiring but enjoyable arcade... we surrended. more like i did.. coz i cant feel my own legs u see. its like im walking on a bunch of needles..

it is sad for us to apart. but, what can i do? i sent them over back to ktm subang and we waved goodbye.. aihh.. i really hope to see them real soon. im gonna miss them and together with my another good frend who couldnt make it.. cs.. whom is celebrating CNY in kampung.. haih.. wishing u were here..

anyway, it was really fun.. and without me realising it.. my tears were already on my face. haha. it was really embarassing coz most of the drivers in other cars realised it but what should i do? i dont want to stop hanging out with them.. but we live so far away and i couldnt make that sad feeling go away..

1437 u guys.. muax!

Underworld

2009-01-23T00:43:00.003+08:00

Director: Patrick Tatopoulos

Writers: Danny McBride & Dirk Blackman

Release Date: 23 January 2009

Genre: Action | Fantasy | Horror | Thriller | Romance

Synopsis: The prequel story traces the origins of the centuries-old blood feud between the aristocratic vampires and their onetime slaves, the Lycans. In the Dark Ages, a young Lycan named Lucian (Sheen) emerges as a powerful leader who rallies the werewolves to rise up against Viktor (Nighy), the cruel vampire king who has enslaved them. Lucian is joined by his secret lover, Sonja (Mitra), in his battle against the Vampire army and his struggle for Lycan freedom.

Comments!!!

well, i enjoyed it. hell yeah! the story line is not dat boring as i heard it would be. its simple for us mere english students to understand and the way they speak are so damn fucking smooth! darn! im jealous.

the scenery.. hrmm.. wat can i say bout a big mansion and a jungle fulled with unlimited lycans or should i called as werewolves..!! yea, i tot the werewolves gonna be like ugly and stuff but the actors they chose are quite .... hot? hahaha

even the main actress and actor.. oh my god.. they're soo lovely together. the way those two lovebirds showed their affection to each other really touch my heart. they really know how to express their love not only with their romantic words but also their slow-motion-action.

Morale!!!

don judge a book by its cover. that doesnt mean a man with a lower background would not fight back for its right and love. the story shows us that love can build and kill a life of a person. open minded for new things and surroundings would be a better ideas rather than keep it and make it worse.

ohoo

2009-01-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

hahaha its funny lah wey
for so many months here...
i just found the right study group i've been searching for
even when it was right here infront of me all this time.. haiz..
sangat memalukan beta..

alhamdulillah for wat we've discussed..
we gained alot.. i mean really alot of other stuff i didnt noe
its realy good u noe..
i hope this time i would pass with flying colors..
i really hope so.. coz i tried and i never even miss any class (except the ones i mc on...hehe)

at least more than last sem
i don care
i really really hope so..
please pray for ma success~!

a flight home

2009-01-02T14:54:00.002+08:00

just arrived i think around 5 mins ago? put on some loud music for the whole journey so that ma eyes wont close but apparently, i think even without any of that.. i still can drive coz ma teeth are killing me. its not the besi which made ma mouth felt itchy but the besi that cucuk-ing ma cheeks!

anywho..
i chose the color i want and ma mom agreed on purple. nyehehee.. will wear it on the 13th. gosh! thats scary.. but ma final on the 5th is scariest! i think i need a boost so that i can make my mind think non stop how to upgrade ma marks even just a lil tiny bit so that i can pass!!

"aim for the sky and not the tree top"

thats wat ma mom usually say to me. but hey, its kinda impossible for me to u noe.. get the highest marks coz me maself not a great student in the class. insyaAllah i can. and i bet one thing, i wont stop studying till i fell to sleep X3

oh my! look at the time.. now i think i need a nap. will continue study at 4 or 5 and NOT 6. ahaha. swt! daaa~

wat the hell ?

2008-12-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

wat the hell ?? ba*i betul.. why izzit happen to me larh!!?? aisyoo... u noe wat. after i finished ma form 5 in dat hell.. i can count all the gathering between ma gud frens with only one hand!? so do u noe wat dat means?? im not socialized!!
shit mothaf*cker!!

no one tried to contact me.. every single one of them just being fake by saying "oh naz.. i miss u" or "oh my.. i found u at last" shit lah.. go the hell.. if u didnt accidentally bump to ma face.. u wouldnt say dat. i guarantee dat for sure. f*ck off bey*th!

im the onli one who called and message non stop to ma so-called-highschool-frends.. and u noe wat?? im sick of it! really really do sick of it! don worrie.. i wont. ever again.. u wanna see me, u ring me and i'll answer after few days.. den oni u noe how pain izzit.. no.. u donno.. u oni noe how to have fun with ur boys and ur gurls all around u..

and go to hell! when i contacted u guys.. none of u appreciate wateva i said.. wateva i cared.. ini tidak.. after so long i kept quiet, u blaming me for not searching for u! wat the f*ck!!

poor me

2008-12-20T18:17:00.002+08:00

anotha 3 more teeth to go and a braces will be done in ma mouth! arghh!~~ cant wait for it wey~ for so long i've been waiting for this moment. ahaks... oh well, last time we didnt have enough money so basically its an acceptable excuse. dont u think?

the pix above.. is my tooth.. my very first tooth to be taken out. haha. its cute anyway. decided to keep it. cs said "u clean up all the blood out and put in the fridge." but cs.. i dont think my mom would be happy if i do that. haha

fuyo fuyo

2008-12-19T22:49:00.010+08:00

pix 1:-
* place: jusco, bb.
* timing: evening. early one i must say
* tag: barney (ya allah.. so cute!)
* price: cant recall
* feeling: quite calm
* comment: tunggu~ aku akan beli kamoo.. insyaAllah..

pix 2:-
* place: matrix moo moo
* timing: nitey nite
* tag: larrie sport shoes
* price: priceless
* feeling: painful
* comment: kaki krem bawak auto.. aku mencik autooo!!!

pix 3:-
* place: gerai kuning, depan apartment emerald park
* timing: tgh malam
* tag: dilla da baby!!
* price: huahuahua... unpredictable XP
* feeling: superbb
* comment: dilla.. happy sunggoh kamoo nihh..

pix 4:-
* place: dataran pahlawan
* timing: quiet nite
* tag: my teeth?
* price: gigi cantek.. u cant afford lah man...
* feeling: suke suki~
* comment: i'm having a baddd fever...

pix 5:-
* place: ruang tamoo
* timing: just now?
* tag: ma panda lappy skin sticker
* price: rm 20!! damn expensive
* feeling: marvelous
* comment: gile gile babing

damn tiring

2008-12-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

wat a tiring day... woke up at 7.40am this morning. blardy punye late if compared to otha times.. cewah~ and then basuh baju kejap... mandi... sidai baju.. and lastly 8.00am i started my journey to the 3-hours class...

*whispered in ma heart*
walaoweh.. how to survive lah in 3 hours.. dahla cikgu membosankan... subjek plak membuat diriku rase sangat malas... motha f~~ XDD

lucky for me today and the rest of ma class..
ma lect let us all go back early half an hour. well, at least she gave us rite? if not, cant even imagine wehh.. i'll be sleeping in da class..

duduk dalam kelas pon aku dok borak dgn da alex yg sangat comel dan sopan.. ahahah.. ma perfect class rep~ damn i like his dress-up.. smart weh!!

after had my lunch.. straight away back and spent all my time by cleaning up ma bags and packed them in ma car....wat a day!! i cant feel my legs so i just drive to class. again!!! dat teacher let us back early. hehe.. sayanglah u madam savi.. ehh..siva? argh.. cant remember her name XP

the time was 3.55.. aljer called me edi.. haha. he stood up right infront my house. with bag packed.. we've gone back to kl.. arrived home at 5.30pm savely. and now, im sleepy wehhh!!!

tagged by chapit miaooo miaooo

2008-12-18T15:26:00.006+08:00

1.Ciri-ciri wanita / lelaki idaman anda?
# Sangat sayang dan cintakk sama aku
# Suke budak-budak
# Terima aku dgn perangai gile-gile aku ni…
# Tak kisah hensem ke tidak lah.. lagi ganas lagi thrill gitu
# Caring tu nak gak.. hehehe
# Kuat tiang agama..nak present pada pak ustaz kat umah nihhh…
# Romantis… ahaks.. geliden~
# Senyum tak penah lengang

2.Adakah anda sudah memiliki wanita / lelaki idaman anda itu?
# Masih in the process nak mengenali…..miahahah!!!

3.Adakah anda mempunyai myspace?
# Mestilahh

4.Pernah terpikat dengan mana-mana kenalan myspace?
# Tepikat tanpa perasaan cinta….camne tu…

5.Ada perkara pelik tak berlaku kat diri anda hari ini?
# Erm..orang sekeliling pandang dan gelak-gelak.. aku pakai baju kurung tebalik ke??

6.Siapakah sahabat anda yang paling anda sayangi? (nyatakan nama)
# Smua aku sayang equally lah…

7.Pernah anda tipu dia?
# Ntah..Tak tentu. Depends on situation hahahaha!!

8.Pengalaman paling mengerikan?
# Nampak bende yang melambai atas umah buwok…. Hampagas d amor!!

9.Pengalaman paling mengembirakan?
# Accident kuh yg paling agung.. hahaha! Lawak sehhh~

10.Have u ever taste drugs? Cigarette?
# Cigarette pernah.. Drugs masih dipertimbangkan XP

11.Describe 10 things about yourself.
# Perempuan straight dan tak bengkang bengkuk..
# Suke gelak most of the time..
# Suke sangat bukak lagu cam orang gila punye kuat~
# Suke main game arcade
# Gula-gula dan cokolat adalah makanan harian kuhh~ ahaks…
# Sangat chubby dan kulit pulak sawo matang ekk?
# Selalu disalah anggap sebagai budak chindia (cina dan india)
# Suke buat bising kat mana jua aku berada
# Sakat orang sekeliling adalah hobi…
# Tak minat high heels!!~~

12.Pernah mencintai orang lain, tapi pada masa yang sama sudah mempunyai teman istimewa?
# Honestly mestilah pernah ohh.. Tak baik menipu.. Tapi dah tak buat dah.. Dah insaf X3

13.Adakah anda rase teman istimewa anda setia?
# Kalau die nak makan kasut aku dalam dalam….

14.Kekurangan teman istimewa anda pada pandangan anda?
# Selalu majuk dan nangis..

15.Kesemua soalan di atas anda jawab dengan jujur?
# Cross my life, hope you die XDD Mestilah aku jawab dengan jujur…

16.Jika anda pernah melalukan sesuatu kesalahan yang amat teruk, beranikah anda menyatakannye kepada orang ramai?
# Kalau itu boleh menyelesaikan keadaan yang tegang dan penuh kemarahan, aku akan buat dengan harapan kemaafan dan penerimaan aku semula di hati mereka.

17.Anda perasan anda hensem / lawa? Hehe.
# Of course!! Aku cukup sifat!! Wahahaha XDD

18.Sebarkan pada 5 orang atau lebih.. tag mereka di luar sana tu.. huhu..
# Mas
# Kak Farhana
# Elizabeth
# Aiman (Aku tau ko selalu bace yeppp)
# Sapa –sapa yang duk skodeng akunye blog nihh…

Comment!!
huahuahua... sesungguhnye.. i typed of wat i've tot in my mind. so, its spontaneously pop out from my mind. its cartoon-ish like always.. haha.. i don even noe wat i really typed.. i just typed.. u noe how that feels? hahaha

credit to chapit the miao miao..haha.. just geram lahh chapit kenekan nazz gini.. but its okay.. i'll pass it to u! yes u!! u... the one whos reading my blog without my knowledge.. faster do this tagged...! if not, i'll make sure u menyesal wan..

anotha motha-boring day~

2008-12-18T15:21:00.002+08:00

holy tooot... wat the hell... wat did i do wrong.. i donno what.. its happening again!! everyone is doing their own works together and oh my.. i can't even noe.. haha.. nevermind lah. just kidding anyway...

anotha boring day...
anotha same motha punye boring punye soklan...
"y u need to wear braces??"

let me tell u my man...
* My teeth are killing me...
* I don like my teeth
* I've been wanting to wear since I realised my teeth are the most ugly ones among ma childhood friends...
* My will, my money..

when i reached home.. i was oh my god.. this room is getting worse.. tonite.. i'll make sure i'll clean it up till its really really shining.. till my eyes feel the PAIN!!! hahahaha XD swt!

and i realised.. someone has sent me a message.. which is.. "naz kene tagged!!".. hampeh betul chapit ni.. luckily i lovee uu ma pren~ kalau x, dah lame kene tendang sakti.. hahaha!! dahla susah nak tengok kaki pendek nih beraction.. haiik~!!!!

oh well... let me put the tagged.. its above this post bytheway..

los dan faun

2008-12-14T18:52:00.003+08:00

Los and Faun are close friends who comes from a very poor family in Melaka. Carlos Rodrigo and Ahmad Faun Bin Sulaiman made a decision to find their true life’s destiny in Kuala Lumpur. As soon as they reach, they start searching for their ideal job. However, Faun’s honesty always get them into trouble and fired at the end of the day. On one particular day, as the shop owner was about to fire them because he has misplaced his wallet. All of a sudden Faun had this very strange headache and elaborated in detail where the wallet was located and surprisingly it was true. Los had a brilliant idea out of this new talent Faun has and plans to start a new business service that he will market. Their business gets more and more popular by the day money keeps on flowing like water as people keep seeking for their help. From a very small Ad in the newspaper to a televised Ad on the TV and in the radio. One day a Datin caught their Ad on the TV and wanted their service in finding the lost watch of her late husband which is valued at RM40 million. As to their excitement in getting such an offer, Faun’s ability to get clues on where the lost watch was slowly fading away and couldn’t get the clues. Will they ever be millionaires? Will they ever find the watch without Faun’s powers?

Comments!!!

for me, i can give 4/5 star to this story. not as boring as other malay movies i ever watched. honestly, i enjoyed it. the lawak in this story really nice wan.. suprisingly.. anyway, the title.. haih.. i tot of something else...instead they were the names of the main actors which is carlos and faun..haha..damn funny weh..

in every part of the show, there will be a very funny part.. for me, i cant stand the way ida nerina plays her part. eventhough shes super sexayy...her watak damn nice liao.. i mean the way she talks... LOL!!!! and the second nicest part is where ar... wait im thinking.. haaa.. the "coli" shop owner.. mothatooot i tell u..

they really put efforts and its worth it! i really like it.. anyone wanna pay for ma second time to watch this movie?? its hillarious... no doubt in that!

xam ohh xam

2008-12-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

xam...wahh...banyak kene hapal..banyak kene buat keje...banyak kene buat assignment..masyaAllah pecah pale hotak nih kejap..haha..
banyak kawan buat pasal.. banyak org keliling buat ragam.. aduh.. macam mana lahh aku boleh ada hubungan dgn dorang nihh???
hahahahahahhahahaha

sayang

2008-12-08T22:14:00.003+08:00

its too much burden for me...
i just arrived at ma apartment. smelly as weird as before.. i accidentally switched off the fans when i was rushing home! haha. but its okay.. ambi pur is here!! hahaha.. smell as nice as i like it..

just finished eatin ma mom's special recipe, nasi ayam!! XD
tasted as sweet as before. really love it.. adore it.. gila bout it.. wat else i can say? its one of ma favourite food in the whole world!

ma mind 50-50 edi..
i have like.. i donno.. just for a sudden, ma interest in studies getting less. shit! i wanna be like my sister.. she soo smart.. but darn! im not her =.="

and so,
location: her bedroom
time: around midnite
when: yesterday lahh

sis: think bout da questions.. the important ones..
me: which are?
sis: if i stop now, wat would i be? wat i wanna be? if i continue, wat can i archieve?
me: ....

moral of the story: don ask a genius stupid questions.. hahahah

latest report for today

2008-12-01T16:44:00.003+08:00

erm....make the long story short~ its okay.. i mean my days.. quite okay.. had nice food and beverages.. including all those lollipops and candies.. and pancakes.. and hotdogs.. and omg.. i eat like a tooot.. hahahah...

maybe im worried
maybe and maybe not.. but yea... it sux when i pushed in ma atm card and looked at the screen.. like "OMG!! where's ALL ME MONEY??!!"
but hey, this is life.. i should learn and put myself togetha to save more money even if its cause ma stomach to play dangdut music...

friends....friends...
which friend?? haha.. someone has told me something.. "naz.. u should do wats best for u.. choose wats best for u but u have to responsible and take full commitment with all decisions u made"
i hope i can.. but err... do i really have to do those last words..??? XD

serik???

2008-11-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

what is wrong with u people?? sukati aku lah aku nak buat ape.. aku nak fikir ape.. aku nak bekawan dgn sapa.. okay.. i get it. u don wan me to face the same problem or the same situation i had before..
but cant u at least think about it first?? i dun have any frends for god sake.. all i have is people who has pity on me!! becoz why? becoz my life is only inside the sangkar and not in real world.. and what can i say.. thank you very much for making my day worst!!

do u noe why people call me unmature?? coz u neva give me any chance to do anything without your knowledge.. i cant even buy my own cloth??
i knew dat one day u'll read this and u'll be mad at me for weeks.. but please.. try and put urself in my place..
u and i are different.. different from everything.. except blood lines.. we lived in different culture.. environment..

i cant live my life anymore.. oh god.. i feel like killing myself this instant...its not worth to live in this unfair world....

haihh

2008-11-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

"tak kenal maka tak cinta"

memang aku stuju sangat dgn kenyataan tu.. coz most of the people i tot that i would hate, now.. i really like them.. bukan senang nak jumpe kawan yang sekepala isn't it? its not like you can see those "i am ur true fren" on their forehead or somethin...

but yea.. i really am amazed with those words..

"bukan kita yang minta untuk dibenci mahupun disukai"

i was really shocked and what can i say.. i've been facing this thing for more than 10 years.. oh! wat a minute.. 18 years if im correct..
its true that we can't see who's our friend and who's not. but try to figure this out.. i mean seriously.. i dunno and i can't change whateva people think bout me nor halang them from talking or treat bad at me..

its their.. what people call it.. authority? haha. guess wat? sometimes i don't care at all.. but most of the time.. i feel something hurt inside. obviously im not cut out for this huh.. i have a non-complete social life aka ma social life suc.. or other way, im a failure..

"buat bodowh jek"

okay! i can do dat.. but can it stop your mouth from talking? surelah the answer tidak kan? kalau tak, masakan kau masih ngutuk aku kat belakang walaupun aku puas tolong kau. tak cukup ke? haa?? am i not enuf fren to you??

ye.. aku tau.. aku tak lawa.. tak pandai dress-up.. i noe where is ma place and where i belong.. but do you? tak penah penah nak puas hati kan? tak penah penah nak understand other people's feelings.. nak jugak buat bende tuh eventho you noe i hate it.. even though i can't stand it..

what the hell... think about it...

fail agi

2008-11-24T18:09:00.002+08:00

failed again. haiz.. mayb im not cut in for this subject. wat a dumb-ass.. i really hate it tho.. i didnt know that i will fail.. again =.=" maybe a stupid C- would help. but no.. i didnt get that one either..

didnt go out dat much lately.. just dat i went out for taking some air. and of course.. dinner.. but i really feel erghh...!!! i wanna drop out frm this.. this U!! y every1 keep denying the truth!! i cant study here!! shit.. i cant take it anymore!! i dun wan this coursE!!!!
arghh!!!

tough tough

2008-11-18T11:35:00.002+08:00

hahahah.. i succeed edi. this week im going home.. hoo~! but the otha weeks.. i dun think so.. this time i come back home with alot... i mean really alot of work to do weyh.. the assignments.. syish.. *speechless*

teacher is getting good in teaching lab sessions. really like her in here. but when it comes to big classes.. with all the noise.. the class intend to be boring. not only her class but all the combination classes. soo boring i tell u.. feel like dying inside..

oh yea.. i dunno why.. ma nights here not dat nice afterall.. i cant sleep.. im hopeless in sleeping therapy.. hahaha today ma class starts at 8 but i only woke up....like 10 mins before that?? aisyoo.. i cant sleep at night and i cant wake up in the morning..

wat a disease!!

gile....

2008-11-17T14:24:00.002+08:00

aisyoo... gile punye time table.. rase macam nak mati dowh.. try to imagine.. for few ~~fuckin~~ days.. my class will start at 8 oclock in da morn~~ wat the hell.. i tot teache would change it to a betta time but not dat timing!~~ huh!!~~

anyway...
i think ma head is in trouble. cant really think.. mostly wan to hang out alone in da acr building stairs.. wat the hell.. =.=" y do i feel sooo free and relax there? i dunno why.. maybe coz there's no one there. but quite dangerous thou.. hahaha!!

im going back this week. i will and i dun care. i feel like as if... i wanna do a suprise or something.. come on.. i noe the busses there.. but stil.. i think i need to tell ma mom.. fiuuhh.. hahaha,.. should i? or shouldnt i? that sux... hahaha..

okaylah.. in da lab.. need to some work.. syish.. wish me luck baby..!!

postpone

2008-11-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

oh hoo... ma mom has postpone ma journey back to malacca. how thoughtful. at least i got to taste the new madagascar meal with ma sish and ma parents before i go back there. how sweet.

i just checked out ma uni's web. well, i got to see ma id number on the supplimentary list for accounting I. ohh how sux is dat!

i have to get ready ma self much earlier than that. really! coz the supp i think it will be afta 7th november or something like dat. i have to checked out later coz now ma eyes and ma mind is concentrating on da bed!~ XD

im gonna mish them... dat would be the main thing. and i got to take this sem seriously. much more seriously than last time. i have to prove to them dat im not playing as in im not serious bout this. its not like i didnt for the fes sem but they didnt actually believed in me. can u believe that?

back to school

2008-11-06T22:42:00.001+08:00

hurm... da otha day, i found out that i failed one of ma subjects.. ma core subject.. which ishh.. jeng4 *dreadful sound effect* the accounting..

soo i have to undergo the strange yet.. wat it called.. "the supplimentary paper"... huh~!! im soo sad u noe when i got the results.. these tears wont go away... T___T but im alright now.. i guess..

and so.. i will start ma new journey to mmu.. again.. =.="

nex monday : ma fes very class for the second sem.. jeng3.. 8 am in the morning.. shit~!!

anyway.. wish me luck~!!!

XD hahahaha!!!

2008-11-01T19:40:00.003+08:00

damn!! im tired...!!! hahaha.. these pictures were taken on October, 30th. well.. u can see my face soo blur and tired.. i fell down when playing the basket and ended up wound on my knee and also pergelangan kaki.. damn its hurt!!

but diyana (the gurl in fes pic) oso fell down.. so we're like 1-1 hahah its fair and square baby..!! she has wounds just like me.. well, dats becoz she fell on me.. hahah.. but still.. fair!!

dat bed!! (da middle one wor) soo small for both of us.. plus, we're not dat small rite? so.. i told her just to put all the bantal infront da tv.. i wanna take a pic.. but the camera died.. and we ended up havin no otha photo on da next day.. and today.. hahaha

nvm lah.. otha pictures.. i can put inside ma head just for ma memoirs.. its cool actually.. to have a bestfrend like her.. a cousin like her.. she is ma second life-savour.. thanx diyana!!! 1437~!!

sad

2008-11-01T19:36:00.003+08:00

its a real hard deal to find a person whom really sincere to be with us, to understand us, to cry with us.. i always do the same mistakes over and over. chose the wrong direction of life that leads me to destruction.

hope someone would save me from the dark.. back to where i am belong.. and together we continue our own life..

kai....

2008-10-24T02:30:00.005+08:00

hahah

i donno y but i really lurve dis guy up here >///<
he doesnt look like okay..
but i really really do adore him

the gazette

hes the drummer
da current 1
i saw once da previous ~~but~~ still kai's howt!

have some pitiful on me

2008-10-24T02:07:00.002+08:00

oh shit

y is it soo hard for me to continue this life
wut did i do wrong to make me feel all the pain
or is it just me u wanna test

thankful to u

dat im still breathing
able to enjoy da beautiful scenery
smell the peacefulness

however

y i feel im da only one to have this
or is just me thinking dat way
y am i so dumb

help! help! help!

oh my
im too deep
im sorry